Never in the world has a woman looked more stunningly beautiful than my bride does tonight.
My bride.
Wife.
Katya Levine is my wife. She’s declared to the whole world that I am the one that she wants to spend the rest of her years with and I could not possibly want it any other way. I’m so happy that I could sing it to the entire world. I’m sorely tempted to. I would, actually, if it weren’t for the fact that Katya has explicitly told me that I’m not allowed to do anything of the sort.
My stunning new bride spins around the dance floor as if she’s moving on clouds.
The veil that she was married in is pinned up closer to her head and the elaborate updo that she picked for the evening. The strapless gown that she chose for today takes my breath away each and every time I allow myself to look at it for too long. The smile that she’s has plastered across her face has the very same effect on me but I will happily indulge.
She’s pinned the bulk of her skirt up in the back so that she can dance and I’m rewarded with brief, intimate flashes of her shapely legs every time she twirls just a little too far.
“Do you know how impressive I find you?” I ask her as she spins in closer to me. Her back pressed as much against my chest as her dress will allow.
“Oh? And why’s that?” Katya grins as I spin her away and back again.
“Moving so easily in your… condition.” I wink as she moves out once more.
The music is so loud at our reception that the only time she can hear me speak at all is when I pull her in close to my chest and growl my words into her ear.
Though, I might like it better like this. It means that I get to see the furiously red blush blossom across her cheeks and there’s nothing that she can do to stop me teasing her every chance that I get.
“Stop it!” Katya practically begs as we move closer once more. “Somebody will hear you and get the wrong impression!”
“What, that you’re pregnant?” I shake my head. “Not yet. But who cares if they do?”
That only makes her blush deepen.
“Seriously.” I commend her. “You’ve been such a good girl so far this evening, I don’t think that anybody has any idea what you’re wearing for me under that dress of yours. Can you feel it every time you move?”
I can see her gritting her teeth. No doubt she doesn’t want to talk about it here. But I’m also willing to bet that she’s so turned on her thighs are coated with her wetness right now as well.
“I’m… getting used to it.”
“Then next time, we will have to get you something with a little more weight.” I tease.
I love watching the way her pupils dilate and her eyes widen at my words. I bet she’s picturing it right now. I hope she is. She had been nearly filled with outrage when I told her that she wasn’t allowed to wear anything underneath of her wedding dress apart from my one, special little item. She had balked and thrown a fit but a few minutes of convincing her with my tongue between her legs and she had caved. Had let me put it on her without so much of a fuss.
The plug was something new for her, she said. But if she was going to promise her life and body to me – I wanted to be able to have all of her body. Every inch and every hole would belong to me. What better night to claim her fully than tonight?
“Somebody is going to know if you don’t stop talking about it!” Katya pushes against my chest like that’s going to do anything but encourage me further.
“Oh, that’s how you want to play it?” I answer and slip my hand into my pocket. She realizes the error of her ways a moment too late when my fingers close around the small remote that controls the vibrating underwear that she’s wearing.
Katya’s knees clamp shut and she nearly falters in her dance step as she whimpers with the sudden pleasure now vibrating against her clit. Her grip is like iron on my bicep as she fights to regain composure and starts to dance once more. Albeit a little less graceful than she had been before.
“Do you think that you will be able to keep them on all night for me, my love?” I whisper into her ear.
She doesn’t answer, but the defiant fire in her eyes lets me know that she’s going to power through. She doesn’t want to lose our little game. She wants me to claim her just as much as I do.
“Or, would a better question be – do you think you’re going to make it all night?” I tilt my head to the side in silent question. I push the button on the panties once more and her knees go weak. She bites down on her bottom lip and I pull her into my chest as the song mercifully shifts into a slow dance. I support her weight with an arm banded around her waist and carry the pair of us through the dance as I know the vibrations are relentless between her legs. No doubt it’s worse every time that I force her to move through the motions of the dance.
I wonder how close she is.
I need to feel her. I want to see her come undone.
Just when her eyes threaten to roll back in her head in front of all of our guests, I turn the panties off. A light sheen of sweat covers her forehead as she glares up at me.
Just to be a shit, I turn them back on full force for five seconds, and then off again.
“Something you need, my love?” I ask her with a saccharine smile.
“Take me somewhere. Now.” she demands.
“So needy.” I click my tongue in admonishment.
“Please. Sir. Take me out of here.” She requests, catching herself.
“I think you can take it a little longer.” I turn the panties on low, just enough to make her miserable with the sensation she can do nothing about as I take a step away from her. “Hmm, I think that I need a drink.”
I know good and damned well that it’s going to be hard for her to walk after me without being noticeable. She closes the distance between us anyway. She’s trying her damned best.
I turn them up a notch again. I swear I can see her nipples through her gown and her thighs clenching together.
“Unless you want to be a good girl, and beg?” I whisper so that only she can hear. My lips brush ever so softly down the column of her neck as I speak.
Full of fire and spark, she glares at me. “Please, Luca, take me out of here… now… please.”
I grin ear to ear and turn the panties up as high as they will go before taking her hand in mind and heading right off of the dance floor. It’s our wedding, after all, we can do whatever we want.
***
Katya
Faster. Faster. Faster.
I can’t walk for much longer. There’s just no way that he can expect me to keep up with him in these conditions. The moment that we are out of the main hall of the venue, Luca turns and scoops me right up and flings me over his shoulder, but he doesn’t turn the damned underwear down for a second. I have to bite down on my lip to keep from crying out in pleasure. I don’t think that I’m going to be able to take it much longer.
I clench my thighs together tightly as my fists ball into the fabric of his jacket. I’m sorely tempted to bite him for good measure just because I can’t take this much longer.
A moan slips out of my lips before I can stop it.
Luca carries us into the first bathroom that he sees and puts me down on the counter at the exact same moment that he manages to turn off the underwear. The abrupt sensations are so sudden and unexpected it’s almost too much.
“Such a good girl for me.” Luca praises me as he kisses down the side of my neck toward my clavicle. “Should we see if you’re just as wet for me as I think that you are?”
If he doesn’t move quickly enough I’m going to grab him by the hair and show my husband exactly where I want his attention. “If you want more begging then I-
“Will give me exactly what I want?” Luca teases with that damned insufferable smirk right before his teeth brush over my skin. I readily arch into the contact. I need friction between my legs. Something. Anything.
“If you insist on flapping your mouth, at least put it to good use.” I beg.
“So needy you are, wife.” Luca breathes into my skin. His hands drop to my legs and start to gather up the fabric of my skirt. I’m only too happy to help him in the process.
“Say it again.” I breathe. Oxygen is harder to come by when he’s speaking to me in that tone of voice.
“Which part, my love?” He sinks to one knee in front of me and my heart flips happily in my chest. I don’t think I’m ever going to get used to that either and I love it. I love seeing him on his knees for me.
“Where you called me your wife.”
Luca laughs. Laughs at me. I swat at his shoulder and he catches my hand. “Careful now, wife, or I shall stop being so generous. We don’t want that, do we?”
His thumbs massage circles up my inner thighs. He finally reaches the panties and curls his fingers around them slowly. It’s torture how slowly he pulls them off of me. I think they are the first pair of panties that I’ve worn in the last month because Luca doesn’t like having anything to bar his access to me when the mood strikes. I’ve gotten so used to not having them there that the extra fabric is too much contact with my overheated, overly sensitive skin.
“Lift your hips for me, wife.” Luca commands.
I move to obey without even thinking. My hands curl around the lip of the bathroom counter and I lift my hips up so that he can pull my panties down.
Luca groans. “Exactly as wet as I thought you were.”
Every movement that I make causes me to be more aware of the shiny metal plug in my ass. The only thing that had distracted me from it was the vibration of the panties and that’s gone now. I’m overly aware of it as Luca no doubt catches glimpse of the jewel the moment that the panties are off of me. I hear them hit the floor but I don’t care.
I hook my legs around Luca’s shoulders and urge him closer before he has the chance to change his mind. I don’t want any more sass from him. He chuckles darkly as he kisses every bit of my exposed skin except for where I want him to be the most. I think he’s trying to kill me.
“Luca!” I plead, his word barely more than a moan on my lips as I lean back against the counter and attempt to grind my pelvis against his face.
Luca takes hold of my thighs and holds me down. He keeps me from moving any more than he wants me to and only then, when I’m helpless in his hands, does his mouth make contact.
A slow savor at first. A man presented with a rare delicacy that he doesn’t want to waste a moment of as he licks and kisses me. His tongue delving deeper, savoring the taste of my wetness on his tongue with a groan of appreciation.
I’m going to come apart at the seams. Literally. I try to move but he’s relentless, never giving my swollen clit any more attention than he deems necessary until I can’t think. I can’t breathe. Only when I’m shuddering, my legs trembling around his shoulders does he show me even the slightest bit of mercy.
His tongue flattens. No more teasing, light touches but something harder as his fingers find my center and slip inside. They curl expertly to the place that makes me see stars.
“More?” Luca asks. I’m nowhere near capable of answering him, but he knows that. “I think you can take more. That’s my good girl.” He adds a third finger. The stretch isn’t anywhere near the way that his cock would fill me but it’s getting me ready for what I know is coming. What I get to have all to myself for the rest of my life. My head falls back and hits the mirror softly. I can’t even bring myself to care about the dull ache in the back of my head as my core clenches.
“Luca – I- I’m-” I try to get the words out, but the moment that I’m about to head over that precipice… he stops. I think I might actually cry.
My body plummets down so quickly I cannot keep up. “No!” I sob. I’m only half aware of Luca moving to stand and then he’s moving me. He pulls me off of the counter and spins me to face the mirror. I don’t trust myself to stand on such shaky legs. He props one of my knees up on the counter and pushes between my shoulders to bend me forward and arch my ass out toward me.
My stomach clenches. I know what’s coming next. I’m not ready. I’m as ready as I’m ever going to be. I’m so turned on – my nerves are like live wires and I cannot think of anything other than how badly I need his cock in me.
A rustle of fabric and I feel him. He grabs the plug from my ass and pulls it out slowly. I hear the metal clatter on the countertop somewhere beside me but all I can focus on is him spreading my wetness back over my hole – and then there he is. Lubricated with his precum and my own cream as he eases into me.
It’s wrong. It’s intrusive and painful and I’ve never felt so full in my whole life.
My face presses into the cold glass of the mirror in front of me. My hand slides down the reflective surface as I will myself to exhale. Slowly he eases inside of my ass, taking and claiming and owning that final part of me that I’ve never given to anybody else before. Something that is only Luca’s and always will be.
His moan shudders through my bones as he sinks further until there’s nothing left. His hand wraps under my thigh, finding my clit and arching me back to his hips as he starts to move – and in seconds I combust. My orgasm had been delayed too long as it was and I can’t fight it off any longer. I don’t want to. It’s blended with the whole new sensations on my end and it just goes, and goes. A climb without a peak.
I cease to exist. I am only pleasure and lightning zaps of sensation and ripples of pain as my body acclimates to him. The sounds that come out of me are hardly human but I have given up caring what any of the guests at my wedding might or might not hear.
My eyes roll up so that I can see Luca’s reflection in the mirror behind me. His hands wrapped around my hip and under my leg as he fucks me. His tie thrown over his shoulder. I don’t even know when he took his jacket off and I don’t care. I can see the strain of his muscles against his shirt and damn if I hadn’t just cum once… not that the second is far off with the way my legs are trembling.
I’m sinking. My bones are turning to molten lava and replacing whatever shape that I might have been before with the one that Luca turns me into. His perfect assault on my clit carries me through one orgasm and straight into another. I think I might black out for a moment. Just a moment. Then he’s filling me. With a groan that I would have swallowed could I have had the ability of kissing him right now. He pumps deep into my ass before stilling. Only then does he give my clit mercy and stop. I can’t tell if I want more or if I want a nap.
I feel the cold of the plug going back to my ass and pushing in almost too easily as I close back around it – sealing the gift that Luca gave me just now deep inside.
He helps me with my dress and picks me back up to sit on the countertop. His hands brush the now sweaty loose strands of my updo back and away from my face before pulling me forward to kiss him. I open my mouth to him, accepting his tongue to dance against mine as he pulls me close into his chest.
“I love you, Katya.” Luca breathes into my lips between kisses. He pauses to press his forehead against mine. “From now until my dying day.”
I can’t stop smiling. I kiss him softly and let him pull me into a strong, comforting embrace. “I love you too.”
I can feel his heart beating against my breasts. It feels like home. Whatever the future has in store for us, Luca will always be my home from this moment forward.
There are very few things that can ruin a lovely vacation. And that was the sort of phone call that could ruin not only a vacation, but one’s whole damned life.
I wanted it to be wrong. I wanted to have misheard it.
Honestly, I wanted to cover my damned ears so that I could pretend that I had never heard that string of words in that particular order ever again.
“Please tell me that you’re joking.”
My voice trembled, and I couldn’t even bring myself to hate it in the way that I normally would. I’m not the sort of person that is prone to emotional displays. But, this? This ripped the world right out from underneath of me and tilted everything on its axis.
My skin felt cold. I could feel myself paling as the damnable words came from my family’s assistant straight into my ears once more.
“I’m so sorry Katya… but your mother’s death has been confirmed by our people. Stay where you are, and await further orders. I repeat, stay where you are until Alexei gives orders.”
Moments ago, I had been allowing the September afternoon sun soak into my fair skin.
I had been having my feet rubbed by the hunk now awkwardly pawing at my back. Not the best travel boyfriend that I’ve ever had in my life, but he’s stupid handsome and looks incredible in a suit so I can’t complain much. Standing at a good foot taller than me and covered in glorious, bulging muscles and tattoos, he certainly looks good being photographed next to me on the beach for my Instagram. He can’t offer me much in the way of conversation, but that’s not what I want him for anyway. He’s not marriage material. Not by half. But, he will do for now.
Certainly good enough in bed to keep me fully satisfied.
What else would one want from a leisurely trip to Valencia, in Spain, if not to have a lot of good sex and sangria?
“What is it, babe?” Derek muttered as his large hands rubbed up and down my biceps. He tried to kiss the cap of my shoulder but the last thing that I want right now is to be touched.
I shrug out of his hold, wading across the pool a couple of inches away from him.
“What the hell happened?! Where is she? Her… her body, where is it? I can go and collect her tonight.” Even as I said the words, I knew that I was not going to be given permission to fly back to Russia tonight and collect her body from whatever pop-up morgue they had her in. I can’t even remember the last time that I was given leave to fly back home to attend to anything. Guilt surges through me at the knowledge that I, being the horrible daughter that I am, have not seen my mother in years. When was our last conversation? Was she alone when it happened? Was she scared?
The thought of her lying there cold and prodded at by strangers is almost more than I can stomach. I might be sick.
Derek tries to grab me again, pulling me by my hips back into the warm, broad expanse of his muscled chest.
“Stop,” I mutter dismissively. Can’t he see that I’m busy right now? Can’t he see that something important is going on right now? I turn my focus back to the phone call. “Does Alexei know? What did he say?”
This time, Derek seems to not want to take no for an answer.
The grip on my hip tightens as he yanks me back toward him. Roughly enough that my phone slips and falls right out of my hand and into the pool.
Whatever my family’s assistant was about to say to me about my brother becomes a gurgly mess.
“What the hell?” I half shout as my palms collide with Derek’s chest.
Something shifts on Derek’s face.
He is no longer the mostly stupid boyfriend that’s been entertaining me for the past couple of months.
No, he just transformed into something darker. Something that I don’t even have time to process before I’m being yanked under the water.
My lungs burn.
For a brief, delusional moment I think that he’s just being petty or something because I ignored him. But then his hand knots roughly into the crown of my long platinum blonde hair and doesn’t budge.
He’s trying to kill me.
Panic explodes through my body as my ‘fight’ mode kicks into overdrive.
I swipe my feet at his, hoping that I can knock him off balance, but he’s so much larger than I am and his grip on my hair is so tight that it feels like he’s going to pull my scalp clean from my skull.
This can’t be how I go out. I refuse to allow this to be the way that I die.
Absolutely not.
I’m a Levine for Christ’s sake. Does he not have any idea?
Guess the meathead just doesn’t care. He might not have any sense of self preservation, but I sure do.
I surge forward under the water and grab a hold of his junk as hard as I can, twisting and pulling with every bit of strength that I have left in my body.
Dark spots are forming on my vision, but it works.
I can hear him yowling in pain even from under the water. Enough that I can scrape my manicured nails into his arm like talons to free my hair from him and kick away.
With a final burst of energy, I kick the heel of my foot into his face as hard as I can before swimming for my life.
Shaking so hard my hands barely work, I gather up all of our clothes and belongings and book it to the elevators.
I glance over my shoulder long enough to see that the pool water has bled red in a ring all around his frame.
Derek’s eyes glint with absolute murder and rage as he slowly attempts to wade toward me.
The elevator doors ding and I burst inside and awkwardly fumble the room key against the lock.
It’s certainly not going to delay him for very long that he doesn’t have a key to the room, but I will take every second that I can possibly get.
I throw myself into our hotel room and slam the door shut, barricading the thin wood with the dresser. Adrenaline must be on high time overdrive because the heavy wooden furniture is not something that I would have been able to move on my own before. I don’t think that I’ve ever managed to pack quite this quickly in my whole life.
I am a hurricane as I tear through the room moving on instinct more than anything else.
I know that if I stop moving, even for a second, reality is going to catch up with me. I can’t allow myself the time to process whatever the fuck just happened to me.
I have to move. I have to get somewhere safe. Then I can call Alexei.
Everything will be okay. That’s what I have to keep telling myself.
I leave behind everything that isn’t absolutely mandatory for my survival.
It feels far too much like my childhood to be comfortable.
Scrambling to hide. Throwing everything into a backpack and mindlessly running until I know that I’m safe.
Alexei is my safe. He’s always been the one to take care of me – but now my brother is tucked away in New York City and a hell of a long distance from Spain.
The violent pounding at the door is even more triggering.
Only, it’s not my father on the other side of the wood this time. It’s an enraged giant of a man whose nose I likely broke a few moments ago after his failed murder attempt.
My heart thumps into my throat and my shaking is even more violent as I throw my backpack on and lace my shoes as best I can before heading to the balcony.
Not the best option, I’ll admit that. But, if it’s death or death, I will be damned if I don’t choose pavement splatter when the other option is man.
Over the balcony and down the drainpipe. I’m nearly down to the ground when I hear the door of my hotel room shatter.
The angry crunching of wood splintering and furious shouting is the background noise to my heart threatening to suffocate me and a desperate desire for him to not look down.
I dive into the first taxi that slows. I don’t even wait for it to stop before shouting at the man to drive me to the airport. “Hurry, please. I’ll pay double if you get me there in the next twenty minutes.”
The man clearly wants to ask me handfuls of super annoying questions but I don’t have time for it. He must read it on my face because in the next moment, he’s peeling down the road so fast it would have made my Russian grandmother incredibly happy to see. I glance anxiously behind me to see if somehow Derek is running behind the taxi on foot. I wouldn’t put it past him.
Almost trembling too hard to dial Alexei’s number on my phone.
He doesn’t pick up until the third ring.
“Brat?” I mutter softly. I hope that by speaking like this, I can hide how terrified I feel right now.
“Da? I am very busy right now, Katya, what is it?”
Even though he sounds annoyed that I’ve interrupted his day, just hearing his voice is soothing to me.
“Has Ms. Lagunov not called you yet?”
“She’s tried, but like I said – I’m busy right now.”
“Mama is dead, Brat.” I whisper.
Saying it out loud makes it real. It makes her actually dead and all at once, the pain hits me.
The pounding, angry headache that throbs and the burning in my lungs all seems to fade away into nothingness as the reality of the situation sinks in. “Ms. Lagunov just told me. She is with her body now, the mortician is finishing up the autopsy for formality’s sake… but Brat, she is gone.”
There’s a series of hushed, angry swearing in Russian from the other end of the phone and I know he’s likely covering the receiver with his hand in some futile attempt to shield me from his temper.
“You are certain of this?” Alexei demands harshly.
He’s always like this. Business first and emotions second.
“Why would she lie?”
“Those damned Italian bastards.”
Something breaks on Alexei’s end of the phone. I don’t know if he’s punched something or thrown something, but it doesn’t really matter. “I warned those mafia pricks what would happen if they stepped out of fucking line. I warned them! Listen to me, Katya, I will handle this. You are to stay put until I say otherwise. I mean it. If they are making moves, I will not risk you getting in harm’s way.”
“Yes.” I mutter lamely as I try to keep myself from blubbering.
“Are you safe where you are?”
I almost don’t want to answer that. I don’t like lying to my brother. “Yes.” I mutter. I mean, I’m as safe as a person in a taxi can be.
I don’t tell him about my own murder attempt.
They have to be related somehow. The timing of it is just too perfect.
Alexei will go completely off the rails if he knows that somebody tried to hurt me and that somebody managed to find our poor mother. He would have every man in his considerable army mobilized in the hour if he knew… and avenging mother comes first.
Besides, I’m fine. Mostly. I can take care of myself.
“We are at war, Katya, do not make trouble. I will send word soon.”
Just like that, the line goes dead on his end and I’m stuck with the taxi driver and the chaos of my own thoughts as he pulls the taxi around to the entrance of the airport.
Alexei can tell me to stay put all he wants, but there is no way in hell that he can make me actually do it. He’s not going to cut me out of this situation as easily as he might like.
He really ought to know me better than that by now.
I’ve always been more of an act first and ask forgiveness later type of gal anyway.
He can yell at me all he likes for it when I show up at his place in New York City.
Chapter Two
Luca
‘Russia target eliminated. Standby for confirmation for Spain target.’
“Well, would you look at that?” I chuckle bitterly to myself as I dab the corners of my mouth with my napkin.
What started out as a nice lunch with my most trusted right-hand man, Dario, was turning into something truly lovely. Paired with the stunning weather outside, good wine and now this?
Yes, it was setting me up for a damned good day.
“Luca?” Dario questions as he sips on his expresso.
“Looks like my father got busy again. Making even more plans without bothering to loop me in on things. How well do you think that is going to work out for me the next time I have to meet with him?” I ease back into my chair and let the cloth napkin rest on the table in front of me.
I close my eyes and inhale slowly through my nose to remain as calm as possible.
It’s not the first time that my father has done something like this.
This damned war he’s gotten our family involved in is a constant struggle.
Logic rarely matters when Enzo has the lead. He gets a hair up his ass about something or another and runs with it. In truth, he would rather prefer not to have to tell his son anything if he didn’t have to. I’ve always been the black stain that he can’t seem to rid himself of. But, as his only heir – he’s stuck with me. He certainly doesn’t care to run his choices through his son before acting on them.
Even if those choices are completely against Cosa Nostra’s moral code.
Something else that he tends to forget in his cursed wars.
My phone vibrates with the alert of another text message that I pick up before I can think better of it.
‘Update received – Spain target en route to NYC. ETA 4:37pm’
The updates are coming to me and not my father for a reason.
It means that he has folded me in and made me responsible for these tasks and hasn’t bothered to tell me.
Again.
Some days I swear that he wants for me to fail.
I’ve done everything that has ever been required of me, and yet it never seems to be good enough.
And now, he’s put me in charge of this task when apparently only one of the two targets that he wanted killed were actually properly taken care of. Which means that I’m going to have to give my father a bad report.
“Everything all right?” Dario asks, already packing up his belongings from the table and signaling for the bill. Most people mistake Dario for my older brother based on our looks. Not dissimilar in features despite the fact that I stand a couple of inches taller than him. He doesn’t have quite as many tattoos as I do, but we are matched scar for scar. Guess it comes with the territory. He’s got seven years of age on me, but you wouldn’t know it to speak to him. It’s not something that has ever gotten in the way of our working relationship.
“No. We will have to reschedule our meeting, Dario. Looks like my father needs to speak with me.” I answer as I tuck my phone down into my pocket and take the car keys from the table.
I don’t bother to wait for Dario, he will manage on his own.
Every second that passes between my getting those texts and not showing up in my father’s office will be counted against me, and Dario is my closest and most trusted man – so he understands.
There is very little that he would ever blame me for.
My black range rover zips through the city that I’ve called home long enough to know it like the back of my hand.
It takes almost no time whatsoever before I’m pulling into the parking garage of my father’s skyscraper.
I pass the keys to the valet and adjust the fit of my black suit jacket before stepping into the elevator coded specifically to work for my father, myself, and our inner circle.
I see that even those security measures aren’t quite enough for the old man, as the red light of a newly installed camera sits in the top corner of the elevator watching my every blink until I reach the penthouse.
I can feel my father’s strange mood in the air the moment I enter his residence. It looks more like a sterile art gallery than a home that somebody could actually live in. A cartoonishly sharp version of hyper modern. All stainless steel, sharp edges and matte black everywhere that you look.
My oxfords make no noise whatsoever as I move to father’s office, where his sweltering fireplace is already lit.
He’s standing with his back to the door and a glass of brandy in his hand, swirling the contents of the glass around the tumbler as he holds it casually near his hip.
I have been told that my father and I look a lot alike.
I haven’t decided yet if that flatters or bothers me.
The man tends to favor heavily on paranoia so he had nearly all records of his history and life destroyed save for a small album of baby photos in my late grandmother’s house. But the album was buried with her for the same paranoid reasons.
He stands at a lean six foot, while I am three inches taller and a good deal bulkier than he is. While his head of thick black hair has turned mostly silver with age, hints of the true color still remain in his full beard and mustache. We have the same deep olive skin and russet brown eyes, though he lacks the dimples that I got from my mother.
“Tell me that you have good news, son.” He addresses me without turning to look at me.
Son? If that isn’t an indicator that he’s in the mood to play games, then I don’t know what is.
Honestly, his constant power trips and games have become almost comforting at this point.
Predictable in their consistency. No point in sugar coating things, get right to the point.
“Levine’s mother? Are you out of your mind?” I blurt a touch more bluntly than advisable.
If it was not just the two of us in this room, he would have had beaten the crap out of me for such a comment.
Instead, he turns slowly, his eyes impossibly darkening with rage over the disrespect that he would interpret my words as.
“It was supposed to be both of the Levine bitches. A swift strike to eliminate most of the remaining bloodline.” His words are condemnation and explanation both as he slowly sips the contents of his glass. “But apparently, the little bitch managed to give our man the slip somehow.”
The clinking of the ice cubes around the edge of his glass is the only noise in the room between us for a long moment.
I understand that he’s pissed that Alexei Levine’s younger sister isn’t dead but he doesn’t seem to understand how serious of a move he has just made. We’re not supposed to go after wives and mothers. Women and children are supposed to be off limits and yet my father has chosen to make his move by going after Levine’s immediate family? That is punching below the belt. This war has been going on for too long, I know that better than most, but this is not the way to move forward.
However, even if I voiced my opinion here, my father wouldn’t listen to it. His way is the only way. His opinion is the only opinion that holds merit.
“You know how this is going to go. This war that you’re obsessed with – there will be no turning back now. You’ve opened season on all of us.” Anger starts to bleed into my words as I speak.
He might be the boss, but his long-term thinking has always been severely lacking.
“You have no one, besides me, so what do you care? Is it not as if they can kill your wife or daughter as retaliation.” Enzo shrugged.
“And our men? Those with families? Because you needed retribution for a few clubs and a slight dip in profits… you felt that this was warranted? Going against all of Cosa Nostra’s values? What does this mean for our clan?”
“My clan, son. You have a long way to go before you get to claim that you have any rights to this family. Do not speak higher than you can reach.”
“You are telling me that you find your actions to be fair? Especially when you know for a fact how volatile Alexei Levine can be?!”
I take a step forward as father places his glass down on the mantle of his fireplace. “You said no innocents. It was your cornerstone, father, and yet here you are – murdering a woman who had nothing to do with any of this. I doubt that she had even the slightest idea of the war that her son was involved in. You know as well as I that there have been no reports of them even being in contact for years.”
“Innocent?” Enzo answers, as if that were the only part of my words that he has picked up on at all. “You stand there and have the balls to tell me that any of those Levine bitches are innocent?!”
His eyes narrow into slits – something that used to cowtail me into submission when I was a child – but that was a long, long time ago.
Now I can just feel the muscle in my jaw clenching, knowing how much his impulsive, reckless actions are going to cost all of us.
“Every one of those bitches is connected to him. That little roach that keeps getting in my damned way!” Enzo’s voice never changes pitch or volume, but somehow it becomes barbed and lethal when he speaks.
Something about the way he can glare daggers at the person he speaks to, that seems to inflict actual physical damage, is something I have never understood and have also never quite learned how to master yet for myself.
This whole war is wrong, but I know that I can’t say that to him.
He wouldn’t listen anyway.
I think that some part of him knows that I don’t support this war, and that I haven’t fully supported his choices in a while now.
Maybe this is all just another test that he’s putting me through.
He’s probably just trying to push me to see where I will break and what the final straw will be that makes me defy him.
That day will come, I am certain, when I will no longer be his obedient son, and I will become one more name on his ever-growing list of enemies.
I don’t know which one of us will survive that day either.
“Care to explain to me why only one of them is dead, instead of both?” Enzo broke the silence, expecting an explanation from me that I just don’t have.
“I have men on the way to the airport to intercept her as soon as her plane lands.” I answer through my gritted teeth.
Enzo smirks. “Oh, good. For once we are on the same page about something, son.”
He lifts a hand and condescendingly pats me on the cheek.
“I want you to ensure that there are no more fuck ups on this job. I want you to personally go to the airport and pick up the young Levine bitch, and I want you to bring me her head. I will have her stuffed and mounted and pictures sent to that meddling twat of a brother of hers before the day is finished.”
Just the idea of doing what he asked of me makes my stomach roil.
It is not because I am not capable of great violence, but this girl didn’t do anything to deserve the horrible, depraved things that I know that my father would do to her.
Not to mention, it is a damned insult to send me out on a petty wet work job when I’m supposed to be getting groomed to take over as the head of the family.
“Unless you think that you can’t handle it? Son?” Enzo continues, his thin lips curling up into a devious smirk.
A year and a half. That’s how long our engagement lasted, and as of today it was finally over. All the planning and worrying, the guest list and invitations, the catering, the music—it had all taken so much out of me, but I already couldn’t remember any of it, and the reception wasn’t even over. No, the only thing I had eyes for was my husband.
My husband.
I smiled at him giddily, and he caught me looking and chuckled. “Another dance, baby girl?”
“Yes please!”
The slow, romantic music had long ago been put away for the night, so instead we improvised a sort of bastardized swing dance as a pop song jazz remix played. I beamed.
I felt perfect, and from the look in Sal’s eyes, he thought so too. Not that I ever doubted that anymore.
We’d come so far. I loved him completely.
He looked over my shoulder and smiled mischievously, turning me around so I could see what he did.
Specifically, my best friend… flirting.
My heart soared.
She’d never get over Nicola, never stop loving him, but she was healing. Though she looked very flustered when Flavio finally broke his stoic work persona to flirt back. I chuckled.
“Since when was your best man such a charmer?” I teased him. “If he sweeps Lucy off her feet, I’ll have to file a complaint.” Sal smirked.
“Yeah, for what?”
“Dunno, something HR,” I shrugged, too overjoyed to bother putting together an actual response. Sal laughed.
“Tipsy,” he accused. I stuck out my tongue at him, as if we didn’t both know I only ever did that when I’d been drinking.
“Not so tipsy I’d miss my brother pretending he’s not head over heels,” I smirked. Sal snorted.
Sure enough, there was Pietro, stuck close to Taylor—also an illegitimate child, technically also a Pellico, but she had been Cristiano’s wife’s affair baby from before they met. In other words, they were unrelated. And he’d been following her around like a duckling from the day Nicola introduced them, apparently.
I knew there was something going on there, but I’d let Pietro decide when to say something.
Mom was also next to Pietro, chatting to Taylor easily. I hadn’t realized the two women had gotten that close.
“When do you think they’re going to admit it?” Sal asked.
“What, to us or to themselves?”
“Both.”
I laughed.
“You know,” Sal said, grinning, “I think enough people have left that we can get out of here ourselves.” I perked up.
“Yes please!” I said. “I mean, as incredible as this moment is, my feet are killing me and also I really want you in me, like, yesterday.”
Sal barked out a laugh, looking around to make sure no one had heard me. As if he hadn’t made me to take off my underwear in a crowded club the first time we had met.
“Oh my god, you are tipsy. Well, I’ll tell you what, since I’m such a loving husband, I’m going to give you to the count of 100 to make it to the restroom.” I looked up at him in confusion. Why the restroom? Was he saying he’d follow me or did he just… want me to go to the restroom? “100, 99, 98…”
Then he gave me a predatory grin, and I realized what he was doing. Giddily excited, I grabbed my skirts and started running.
Salvatore
“73, 72…” I counted to myself, swiveling my head to make sure I kept my eyes on my wife.
Holy shit, my wife.
I wondered how long it would take me to get used to saying that.
“69, 68, 67, 66… Finally.”
If Mary thought I was going to give her a full count of 100 she was very, very wrong.
I couldn’t wait that long tonight, and if I had to guess, neither could she.
So, the second I saw the restroom door swing shut I bolted down the hallway toward it, grinning like a madman.
Mary was already gathering her skirts up at her waist when I burst in, and she squealed with laughter as I pounced on her, barely remembering to lock the door.
This was a long hallway, and the music was loud.
The last thing I needed was my newly minted mother-in-law -who did not like me very much as of yet- walking in on me consummating my marriage to her daughter in an event hall bathroom.
“Oh my god you fucking minx,” I gasped, pinning Mary to the wall and helping her get her skirts out of the way. I barely got a glimpse of what was under them but I knew what I’d seen. “You fucking plugged your cunt on our wedding day?” Mary giggled.
“I didn’t walk down the aisle like this,” she defended.
“No, just danced surrounded by our family and friends for two hours. Fuck.”
“I just wanted to be ready for you, Sir,” she said, entirely too innocently. I growled.
“Well let’s hope you did a good enough job.”
I couldn’t see anything with the dress blocking the view, but it wasn’t hard for me to find the flared base of the plug and pull.
It came out with a wet sucking noise and I groaned. “You’re already so wet,” I panted, frantically pulling my cock out of my zipper.
“Well, I have been dancing with this in for two hours…” she said, throwing my words back at me.
I growled and slammed myself into her. She yelped.
“Be a good girl and stay quiet,” I hugged, setting a brutal pace immediately. She’d prepped herself well, walls soft and giving around my cock as I fucked her. I could feel her cunt fluttering, my little pseudo-exhibitionist. “You can be a good girl, right?”
“Yes Sir,” she said, eyes darkening as I watched.
“Mmmm, good bunny,” I groaned, my balls slapping against her cunt viciously. “My sweet little wife. Fuck. You’re already so close, huh? I can feel you pulsing honey, you’ve been teasing yourself all night with that thing, haven’t you?”
“U-uh-huh,” Mary gasped, openmouthed.
“You think you get to come?” I asked, reaching between us as well as I could to pinch her clit. She squealed. “You stuff yourself full of some fucking silicone and think I’m gonna let you cum?”
“Please,” she whined, meeting my thrusts. “Please let me come Sir, I wanna come for you. Wanna squirt on your cock on our wedding night.”
We’d only just recently found out she could squirt, and we’d only made it happen a few times.
Hearing those words, arousal stabbed through me—yeah, no, we wouldn’t be sleeping tonight.
“Hold it,” I ordered harshly. “Good girls don’t come until I say so.”
Mary’s lower lip wobbled, and I felt her tighten her pelvic muscles in an attempt to stave off her rising orgasm. Good.
That additional tightness, that nearly bruising squeeze, was exactly what I was looking for. “Aw, don’t cry, baby, you’re gonna ruin your makeup—fuck—”
“Come in me,” Mary chanted. “Come in me, come in me, come in me—”
“Yeah? You wanna walk out of your own wedding with my cum sliding down your leg?” I grunted, already racing towards the finish line. Well, my finish line, anyway. “You nasty slut.”
Mary whimpered. I fucking loved her degradation kink, almost as much as I loved her praise kink. I didn’t love either of them as much as I loved her, though. “Alright then, you get what you want. Gonna fill you up, cum in your slutty pussy, you fil-ilth-y—”
I choked myself off with a groan, hunching into her as I kept my word.
Mary wasn’t satisfied, still right on the edge of her own orgasm, but when she started trying to move her own hips I pulled out and slapped her cunt hard in punishment. She cried out.
“I don’t fucking think so,” I growled. “I told you not to come, and you’re not going to.” Mary looked at me with wide, watery eyes, and I grinned meanly. I was going to ruin her. “You have until the count of a hundred to get to the car, or I’ll fuck you right on the ground in front of our guests.” Mary’s eyes turned almost completely black.
“100, 99, 98…”
She took off running, and my smile was all teeth.
Mary
One week later
“Excuse me, Mrs. Mastro?” a familiar voice drawled, and I sat up straight at my desk with an excited gasp.
“Sal!” I said, rubbing my sore eyes. Staring at a computer screen for hours could really do a number on the vision sometimes. “What are you doing here?”
“Brought you food,” he smirked, lifting up a white take-out bag. My mouth watered.
“Oh my god, Gorditino’s?”
“You know it,” Sal said, placing the food right in front of me on my desk. “It’s almost midnight, bunny. It’s time to come home.”
Stunned, I looked at the time. It was, in fact, almost the next day. “I’m sorry,” I grimaced apologetically. “I broke a rule.”
“And I’ll punish you for it, once the issue is out and you can take a day off. Right now, I want us to eat.” I frowned at the small bag.
“Did you order enough for two?” I asked. Sal smirked and sunk down to his knees, and my heartrate spiked. Oh, he wasn’t planning on eating food.
“Good thing I wore a skirt,” I breathed, parting my legs eagerly for my husband’s searching mouth.
Mary Mastro, I thought to myself, you are on top of the world.
The Bensons were many things, but quiet was not one of them.
I crashed through mom’s door, carrying a dish of wedged potatoes that was just a little too hot to be holding with my bare hands, as my red hair whipped into tangles from the wind.
I felt like a mess—and I looked one too. I certainly didn’t look like a fashion school graduate.
I shouted out an ‘I’m here!’ into the house, dropping the potatoes -almost literally- onto the table in the foyer.
I expected mom to come around the corner with her oven mitt on, smiling at me and telling me to get in there, or to hear my brother hollering from the dining room about how late I was. A part of me still expected to get swept up into my dad’s bear hug, even though it had been almost four years now.
Instead, the house was silent, and the minute I realized it my spine tingled with apprehension.
It had been a difficult day.
The magazine had me writing an incredibly boring article on the miraculous powers of a liquid dish soap.
I had taken a journalism course in college alongside my fashion design major in the hope that I could work for a prestigious fashion magazine whilst designing my own line of clothes one day. I had yet to write an actual fashion article, no matter how hard I tried, and none of the fashion magazines in the area were hiring. Or at least, they weren’t hiring me.
I’d ended up needing a hot shower to destress, but it stopped being soothing the minute I stepped out and caught sight of the clock.
I’d lost track of time and had only thirty minutes to get ready for the Benson Monthly Family Dinner (trademark pending).
Those thirty minutes were a whirlwind of me dodging from one end of my room to the other, trying desperately to put myself together enough to convince mom and Pietro I was doing alright.
It probably worked, at least for them.
I’d put on a sage long-sleeved dress with gray leggings underneath, which was just the right mix of flowy and flared to create an illusion of the curves I didn’t have, with a chunky, spiced-pumpkin sort of orange scarf keeping my pale neck and collarbones warm from the fall chill.
The slouchy hat matched, but the ankle-boots were a light tan that didn’t fit the rest and I hadn’t had time to put any earrings in, let alone add bracelets or a necklace.
I’d had to tie my hair, still wet enough to look brown more than copper, into a messy braid, and I’d had to try to do my eyeliner on the bus.
If I’d had a few more minutes to put it all together I would have been able to make it cute, and to most people it would probably still be passable, but it felt painfully incomplete to me.
I paused and forced myself to take a breath.
I didn’t want my family to worry, and besides, it was all going to turn around soon. I just had to bear it a little longer and then I wouldn’t have to force a little extra cheer onto my face.
“Mom?” I called again. “Mama, I’m here.”
My stomach sunk when no one answered me.
“Mom? Pietro?” I started down the hall towards the dining room as the frenetic energy that carried me in flatlined into something heavy in my gut.
I tried to shake it off. Sure, something unusual was happening, but that didn’t mean I had to teeter down the hallway with my heart pounding like I was in some horror film.
I should check my phone—maybe they had just gone to get something from the grocery store last minute and I just hadn’t seen the text—
Then mom rounded the corner, eyes distant and a letter clutched in her hands. Instantly I knew that something was wrong.
“Mom?” I gasped, hurrying towards her with my hands out. It looked like she would pass out and I knew if she did I’d have to catch her, although I didn’t know how, given that I was the definition of a stick and couldn’t lift more than ten pounds on a good day. But wasn’t that what adrenaline was supposed to do? Make people stronger when they were scared?
I grasped mom by the shoulders, looking up at her. Her eyes met mine and the first sob broke free.
“Oh, Mama,” I whispered, walking her back so she could sit at the dining table.
Immediately, I felt tears burn my own eyes; my mom was an emotional woman but she rarely ever cried in front of us.
The last time was the day dad died. She’d soldiered through the funeral planning and the wake with the people bringing casseroles with dry eyes, sagging like the world was heavy and she was exhausted, but never breaking into sobs.
To see her now, hyperventilating with this scrap of paper clutched tight to her chest, made me feel overwhelmed and helpless—and scared down to my soul.
Pietro wasn’t there, and I feared the worst.
“Mom?” I asked, a sob building in my throat. “Mama, please, what’s…” She shook her head and held out the letter. All it said was:
Dear Mom and Mary—I’m sorry, but I’m going somewhere dangerous and I can’t take you with me. I’m not in trouble, but there’s something I have to do. Mom, I found out but I don’t blame you for keeping it secret. If everything goes well, I’ll be back in a while, but I’m begging you not to call the police. The people I’m with cannot know who I am, and if the police come looking for me, I’ll lose the advantage of anonymity. I know this is scary for you, but the best way to keep me safe is not to tell anyone I’m in danger. If everything goes according to plan, which I really think it will, then I’ll come back to you. I promise. Stay safe, and stay out of downtown. -Pietro
I stared at the words, reading them over and over like they would suddenly say something that made sense to me.
All I was catching was Pietro, danger, might not come back—it spun around in my head senselessly.
Sure, we hadn’t heard from him for a few days, and we’d thought that was kind of weird since we were a very tight knit family, but this terrifying, cryptic message couldn’t be real, could it?
I mean, Pietro could be a total annoyance, but he was never a troublemaker. He’d dodged some classes but never failed any, and he’d thrown some punches but never the first.
He was smart and funny and personable, and he was my big brother.
No, it couldn’t be real. Pietro was fine.
This was a prank, or a joke, or he was filming from around the corner while snickering, or something.
He’d pop out with a big grin, and then see us crying and apologize, saying he didn’t think we were going to take it so badly. He’d comfort us like he had after dad’s death, he’d hug me like he did after my first college boyfriend broke my heart, and I’d smack his chest and yell at him and be so, so glad he was there.
But mom was struggling to reign in her rising fear, clasping her hands over her mouth like that could smother the urge to scream, and Pietro wasn’t anywhere
I read the letter again.
Found out—secret—they can’t know who I am—if the plan works—if the plan works—
I felt like I would collapse.
Pietro was gone. This letter was real.
Pietro was in danger, and he was gone. I’m going somewhere dangerous, and I can’t take you with me.
What was the plan? Where had he gone, why was it dangerous, why could no one know who he was when he got there? Would he ever come back?
What had mom kept a secret, and why did it sound like it started all of this?
It was handwritten, and it was Pietro’s handwriting.
He did that stupid thing where he put a vertical line inside of every lowercase O, because otherwise no one could ever tell his O from his E, and the slant of the Ts and Ds were weirdly severe. I had that handwriting in every one of the 24 birthday cards he’d given me.
There was no mistaking his penmanship.
Mom took deep, heaving gasps, eyes closed, as she tried to pull herself together. As she tried to be the adult.
I was never any good at that, someone else always had to pick up the slack, putting aside their own needs to help me with every curveball that came my way. And here mom was, doing it again.
She pushed the fear, the grief and hysteria, back down inside of her, even though I was sure she wasnted to let it all out, and I needed her too bad to tell her not to.
“Mary,” she croaked. “Ma-Mary.”
“Mom?” I asked, voice small. “What—what does he mean, he’s gone? What is he doing?”
Another sob half-broke out of my mom’s clenched teeth and she clenched her whole face until the moment passed. “He’s—I think he’s with the mafia.”
As I already said, I had never been very good at handling bad news.
When I was 12 and my bully had dumped her food tray on me I’d sobbed inconsolably for days, and when I got rejected from my first-choice college I’d thrown up. When dad died they’d had to hospitalize me for dehydration because I cried out all the water they tried to give me.
This time I felt the room spin and let my eyes roll into the back of my head.
I wasn’t unconscious for very long, according to mom, but I woke up on the couch with my mother looking near apoplectic beside me.
“Mary!” she gasped, squeezing my hand so hard it throbbed. “Oh my god, baby, don’t do that to me—here, have some water. Does anything hurt?”
“No,” I drawled, smacking my lips as I came back.
“Are you sure you didn’t hit your head?” mom asked, bringing a cup to my face and peeling open my eye like she had the medical training to diagnose a brain bleed or whatever. I pulled back from her, taking the cup.
“I’m fine,” I said, pushing myself up.
The events of my last few waking minutes slowly leaked into my brain. God, Pietro was gone.
He was with the mafia.
“Mom,” I said seriously, looking her in the eye with an uncharacteristic seriousness, “I need you to tell me everything.” She gulped.
“I never wanted you to know,” she said. “Either one of you.”
“Mom,” I said, firmer. Her lower lip wobbled.
“You and Pietro are half siblings,” she blurted, squeezing her eyes shut like she knew my reaction would stop her if she saw it, and she knew I wasn’t going to accept half a story this time.
Then, before I could process the depth of what she’d just said, she dropped the next bombs, one after the other.
“He—his father r-raped me. I was engaged to Dad at the time, and I thought he was going to leave me, but he didn’t. We realized I had got-gotten pregnant, and there was no way it could be Dad’s, but Daddy wanted to tell everyone Pietro was his so no one would have to know what had happened to me. It was a different time, honey, we didn’t talk about these things, and we were scared what would happen if Pietro’s biological father,” she spat the words with disdain, “ever found out.” I was speechless.
“O-okay,” I stuttered, trying to digest all of that. “So what—what does that have to do with now?” Mom swallowed thickly.
“Because,” she said, shoulders rising around her ears as she tensed further and further, “the man who raped me—Pietro’s birth father—is Cristiano Pellico. The mafia boss.”
I stared at her. I remembered a video where someone dropped a bowling ball into jello, and the way the bowling ball carved its way to the bottom, growing slower with every second of resistance but never stopping. At that moment, I felt like I was that jello.
Pellico, Pellico… I didn’t know the first thing about the mafia, but I’d seen that name somewhere recently.
“You think he found out?” I asked, half-numb.
Mom nodded jerkily, eyes frantically pleading with me as we finally made eye contact.
“I don’t know how,” she said. “I thought I’d buried our secret, not even your grandparents know. Daddy’s name is on his birth certificate, we registered him as Daddy’s son, I never wrote it down anywhere or talked about it to anyone but your dad. I don’t know how he knows, but he does.”
“And now he’s… joining the mafia?” I asked, the words fitting wrong in my mouth.
That was ridiculous. Pietro wasn’t a criminal.
He wasn’t a scarred-up thug who roamed the streets looking for fights, he was the brother who had skipped high school parties to watch his little sister swim like the seven years age difference was nothing.
He didn’t do drugs or any other weird stuff, he was just a guy. Just an average 31-year-old.
He worked at a tire shop. He hated pistachio ice cream.
“I don’t know,” Mom said, voice cracking. “The letter dropped through the letter slot maybe fifteen minutes before you got here, I haven’t—I haven’t figured anything out yet, but that is the only thing I have ever hidden from the two of you.”
“But—but why?” I asked, lost. “Why would he join the people who hurt you?”
Mom shook her head.
“I don’t know,” she said morosely.
Pellico! The image of my phone screen! My phone automatically opened to a news feed, that is where I had seen, in big red letters, the words “Nicola Pellico Found Murdered.”
I gasped.
“My phone,” I said, trying to stand and ignoring my mother trying to urge me back down. “I need my phone!”
Yep, right there—Nicola Pellico, the only son of suspected mafioso Cristiano Pellico, was found just hours ago in his apartment with four bullet holes punched through him, face down in a puddle of his own cooling blood, gunshot residue on his hands, his gun nowhere to be seen. So far there was no evidence of a forced break-in or a stated suspect. Information was still being gathered from the crime scene.
My mouth dried up, and my mom went rigid where she was looking over my shoulder.
Nicola had been 26, just two years older than me, and he hadn’t done anything important or notable. The only reason anyone would target him was because of his father.
His father, who was also Pietro’s father.
If someone killed Nicola in order to get back at Cristiano for something, then wasn’t Pietro living under the same threat? Is that why he left, to keep us from getting caught in the crossfire?
“We have to do something!” I said, shaking my head There had to be something we could do, right? Some way to go back to normal? Mom’s fists wrinkled her work blouse.
“What, Mary?!” she snapped.
I reared back, and she reigned in her voice a little. “What can we do? He’s right, if we go to the police he’ll get killed. With all of… this… Cristiano will be desperately looking for another heir, so if Pietro shows up he’ll probably be welcomed with open arms.”
I tasted bile.
“So—so if—”
“If he joins, he’ll become a mafioso. The police don’t help mafiosos, they shoot them. And if the mafia finds out the police are looking for him they’ll think he’s a snitch, and they’ll do a lot worse than shoot him .”
“But—”
Mom shook her head, holding me tight. “We can’t do anything, Mary. We can’t do anything at all.”
Chapter Two
Salvatore
When people died, they tended to take their secrets to the grave, and I had to know everything Nicola Pellico had up his sleeve.
Usually, when I was staring this intently at a photograph, it showed a crime scene.
Or, occasionally, a future crime scene.
I was not used to inspecting a series of photos of one dead man and a random assortment of people he’d apparently known.
I sighed, rolling my head to loosen the tight muscles of my neck.
Flavio glanced back at me in the rearview mirror; he was a good man, as far as mafia men went, and deeply loyal to me as the last Mastro. He knew better than anyone else how personal this situation was for me, and though he wasn’t stupid enough to tell me to take a break, I could tell he was keeping an eye out for anything he could do to help me.
I returned to the photos in my hands. Each one was taken in a different location, at a different time of day, and even though Nicola was the constant in every picture he was the one thing I wasn’t looking at.
After all, he was no longer a factor.
No, the trouble I had was with the small group of people that seemed to revolve around him, only some of whom I could identify.
Lorenzo Sprezza and Francesco Faci were both soldiers in the Pellico family, but neither of them held any importance within the organization; there were two women, one seen more frequently than the other, that my consigliere was working to identify, and two other men who were also yet unknown to me.
If the rumors were true, and Nicola Pellico had been planning some kind of coup, these were the only people who could tell me about it.
Truthfully, the idea amused me to no end. I despised the Pellico family, in part because they were the natural rivals of the Mastros but more personally because Cristiano had forced me to watch as he ended my family and my childhood in a wash of blood.
The nightmares had never ended, and the rage only grew more bitter with each one.
Nicola was just Pellico’s son, but that was enough for my hatred to extend to him. Nonetheless, that he could have been scheming right underneath his father’s nose, ready to upend his family and possibly send everything Cristiano loved and felt pride in crashing to the ground, brought me incredible joy.
Part of me hoped that Cristiano figured it out before Nicola found the wrong end of the muzzle. The betrayal must sting something terrible.
I wanted Cristiano Pellico to feel true despair before I put a bullet in his head.
How awful would he feel, in his final moments, to suffer as my father did? His children murdered, his lineage snuffed out, his empire left kingless? Everything he’d worked for in his life gone?
I rubbed absently at the scar Cristiano’s bullet had left in the center of my chest when I was too young to even know what kind of life I was born into.
No, killing the man wouldn’t be enough. I had to destroy him.
I refocused myself on the photographs.
If Nicola really was planning a revolt and these people were on his side, then they were more loyal to Nicola than Cristiano and might tell me everything I needed without having to deal with the messy affair of torture.
If they did, I’d offer them a swift, clean death.
The men, at least—not like Cristiano Pellico. He had never held true to the Cosa Nostra law to keep women and children out of mafia business. I had experienced that personally.
Unless the son had turned his back on that, the women wouldn’t know anything, and were more than likely the wives or girlfriends of the other men involved in Nicola’s plot. I wouldn’t go after them unless I had to, and I doubted I would.
Even if the men didn’t want to talk, I had ways to make them open their mouths.
“We’re here, Don Mastro,” Flavio said, pulling me out of my thoughts as the car rolled to a stop outside my home. I pocketed the photos with a sigh.
“Grazie, Flavio. Will you be using your room tonight?”
“No, sir,” Flavio responded. “If you don’t need me, I’ll spend the night at my place.” I nodded, sliding out of the car.
“Very well. Goodnight, then.”
“You too, Don Mastro.”
My house was beautiful, and it was one of the reasons I pitied the bosses who were stuck in places like Chicago and New York, where the height of luxury was a penthouse suite.
Nothing would ever match up to a freestanding home. I was often grateful to have been born into Buffalo—a city of significant size, yes, but with a far more suburban feel. The buildings here had individuality.
I left my shoes and coat in the foyer, unsurprised by the silence that greeted me.
It was far too late for the maids or cook to be here, and the house was far larger than I needed for just myself.
For now it felt empty, but someday I’d fill it with my children.
It was my job to revive my family, so I would need at least four kids to secure our lineage for the future.
In the meanwhile, I had the space to have overnight rooms for my underboss or consigliere should our business run particularly late, so it worked well for now.
I followed the curve of the stairs up to the second floor, deciding to head straight for the shower and neatly peeling my shirt and belt off on the way. My bedroom was massive, with high ceilings and enough space for two beds, but I barely glanced at it.
I’d bought this house the day I turned 18, selling the home where my family was slaughtered, and had lived here since.
Nothing about this opulence was unusual to me—if anything, I had downsized from the mansion I’d grown up in.
I stepped out of my dress pants and dropped my clothing into my dirty laundry bin, not sure if the cleaning service could salvage them now that the blood spatter had dried into hard brown scales. If they couldn’t, no biggie, they’d provide perfect replacements.
I didn’t care much about clothes, luxury cars, watches, or private jets.
Money couldn’t buy me what I wanted.
Sure, by most people’s standards I was living like a king, but it was all surface level.
Until Pellico’s head was served to me on a platter, using my father’s fortune felt like spitting on his grave.
I entered my bathroom, moving past the full-length mirror to start the shower. I barely bothered looking at my reflection.
My body, like everything else, was a tool.
My slightly above average height made it easy to blend in to crowds, my black hair just long and shaggy enough to help cover my facial features if I needed it to but could just as well be slicked back into the sharp, clean visage expected from a Don.
I kept my body muscular so I could handle any situation with force, but leaned into a wrestler’s physique more than visible muscle definition, because defined muscle was intimidating but not as useful.
I was less threatening this way, clearly strong and capable, but not in the way that made people stare.
Staring meant you were noticed, and being noticed meant you’d lost your element of surprise.
Being underestimated, would only ever work in my favor.
I had my father’s tan skin, and my mother’s blue eyes. My mother’s father had passed down the square jawline to me, and I never knew where my thick eyebrows came from.
I knew where each scar came from, though.
One long one running down the outside of my thigh marked where the surgeons had to cut me open to bolt my broken femur bone back into place, and both my knees were heavily scarred from repeated abrasions, and nearly invisible at this point was a small line across my forehead where I’d been pistol-whipped as a teen.
Then, of course, the starburst of gnarled, darkened skin sitting low and tight on my sternum.
Without any of my trappings, I looked more like a street rat than a Don. It was my favorite version of myself.
I stepped under the warm spray and started kneading at my shoulder muscles, pondering over those photos again.
The most recent one, in particular, had my eye; in it was Nicola, sitting at a table with two men on either side.
I recognized Faci and Sprezza, but then there was another man with strawberry-blonde hair and lastly one with a tattoo on his neck. They were sitting at a table in a darkened venue that I couldn’t place, which meant it had to be owned by the Pellicos.
There was a crowd, what looked like several tipsy people holding drinks and laughing, but the mood at their table was serious and tense.
They were clearly talking business, and based on the somber looks on everyone’s faces, it looked like a war meeting.
I had worked towards my revenge for more than two decades, and I was so close to finally looking Cristiano Pellico in the eye as I tore down his empire.
Whether Nicola had really been trying to overthrow his father or something else was going on, I didn’t know.
I could not let unforeseen circumstances derail me from my quickly approaching justice.
I was going to hold Cristiano’s life in my hand, show him how useless it was, and then crush it. And no one else would distract me while I did it.
I kept my shower short and utilitarian, dried off briskly, and didn’t bother to redress as I made my way to the kitchen.
If I was going to be up all night trying to find these mystery men, I was going to need the fuel.
I had one goal, one single-minded purpose, and I was too close to seeing it through now to waste time sleeping.
“Sara, what are you doing here?” Lia asked in alarm, throwing open the door to her home and ushering me in. She blinked in confusion, her hair a mess, and gazed out into the night. “And in the pouring rain? Did you miss your flight? Or did it get cancelled because of this bizarro weather?”
“Yes—I…” I stepped in, shivering and shaking, pushing back my hood and aware I was dripping all over Lia’s front hall. “I’m sorry, I just…”
“Don’t apologize,” Lia said and took my jacket, then told me to leave my bag, and take off my shoes.
I obeyed in robotic motions, hands shaking, and followed her into the kitchen, where their dog Fenway came galloping up to me, wagging and sniffing. I sank my hands into his soft fur and tried not to weep at the comfort. Nor at how bright my engagement ring was against Fenway’s lovely fur.
“Are you okay?” Lia said and gestured at me to sit. I did, and let Fenway put his heavy head in my lap. She set a glass of water in front of me and then bustled to the kettle, then back. She was still so golden, so gorgeous, and even two kids or being woken up at two in the morning by her crazy friend couldn’t dampen that. “Did something happen?”
“I’m pregnant,” I blurted out and burst into tears.
Lia made a soft, shocked sound and moved closer, her hands, warm and soft, wrapping around mine. I had my other hand pressed against my face as I let out choked sobs, and Fenway made a nervous, whining sound in his throat.
“I need you to fill in the blanks, Sara,” Lia said. “What am I missing—you and Danny—”
“Aren’t even married yet,” I burst out and stood up, startling Fenway and Lia. I was irrational and angry, hormones and exhaustion churning through me. “Six years we’ve been engaged, and I get it—so many things happened. The company took off, Danny had to spend half a year in Germany, and I was overseas, and we put it off so that his cousin… Luca…” I swallowed hard. “We wanted Luca to be there, and everyone, and then all that shit happened with Kir, and the guys had to help…”
I walked to the glass door, arms wrapped around myself, and stared out into the dark yard, my reflection almost swallowed up by the rain and shadow. How had it been so long? How could we have kept putting it off?
“Sara,” Lia said gently. “Danny wants to marry you—more than anything.”
My entire body seemed to convulse, fear and nerves snarling through me. Danny hadn’t brought it up in months. Sometimes my ring seemed to mock me, and we were coming up on our anniversary, and he’d said nothing. He seemed so worn, so tired, and worried about Luca, back stateside and raising hell in Boston. Things with Kir were calm and happy, at least. And of course, Ty and Lia were safe and snug with their little family here.
“I just…” I placed a hand on the glass and my ring glimmered. “I wonder if I was the first bit of normalcy he had and it was good enough to get him out of it, but maybe it’s not enough to move forward. And now.” I pressed a hand over my stomach. “Why am I so terrified?”
Lia got up and moved closer. “Terrified of what?” A sob burst out of me, and Lia hugged me from behind, rocking me. “Sara, Sara, you’re scaring me. This isn’t you.”
“I—no, you’ll hate me,” I whispered.
“I could never,” Lia said fiercely and turned me around with surprising strength. “The woman who faced down the mob to try and get her friend back? You tell me right now.”
“I’m terrified if I tell Danny that I’m carrying his child—he’ll run,” I said, and a sob burst out of me. “I’m terrified I’ll never see him again. I—I don’t know what to do.” I shivered and shook in her arms. “I don’t know what to do. He hasn’t mentioned marriage in months. He seems so tired, so worn.”
“Oh, Sara, no,” Lia whispered. She ran a hand over my hair and squeezed me closer. “It’s okay, I promise it’s okay.”
“I—I just need a few days,” I said. “Can I stay here?”
Lia leaned back and gazed at me, her eyes crinkling up. “Of course. Stay as long as you need. But you should—”
“I will,” I fibbed. “I already sent him a message and said I had to stay longer.”
It didn’t matter, because Danny was overseas, and probably would give my message a passing glance—if that.
Somehow, we’d been missing each other often these past months. I couldn’t even remember the last time we’d been at our apartment together.
“Sara,” Lia warned, but then she sighed and nodded. “Come on. Let’s get you out of these clothes and into bed.” We turned and both jumped, as Ty was standing there, his eyes wide and a hand pressed to his heart. “Oh, Ty—Sara is going to stay here a few days, she’s…” Lia was babbling but Ty was zeroed in on me and tears glimmered in his eyes.
Before she could say another word, he’d crossed the kitchen and pulled us into a bear hug, causing us both to squawk and Ty to squeeze us tighter.
“Of course,” he said gruffly. “Sara can stay as long as she wants.”
When he pulled away, his eyes told me that he knew, but the dip of his chin said that he wouldn’t say a word.
I gave him a look of thanks and Lia led me to bed.
***
A week later, I was sitting with Mario and Rina in the yard, a lovely, warm breeze stirring my hair, and clouds racing overhead. The rains had finally let up the day before and the yard had dried out enough to venture outside. It had been a bad storm, wreaking havoc on airlines, and even I’d wanted to leave, I couldn’t.
Privately, I appreciated mother nature looking out for another mother. A buzz went through me, a surreal dizziness, part terror, part excitement, and I pressed a hand to my stomach, still unable to believe it.
I’d been extra fatigued these past few months, but I’d chalked it up to travel and work. But no, I was three months pregnant, which was the last time that Danny and I had been together, a lovely night in our apartment where he’d been extra attentive, as though to make up for all the travel he’d have to do over the next month, which had turned into three months.
Mario was singing and running in the yard, already getting too big at almost eight, while Marina, or “Rina,” was still a bit puppy-ish at six and a half. Still, something in my throat ached at how fast they’d grown, how much I wished that we were closer, even if we were on the same coast.
I settled on the blanket, smoothing my hands over the warm fabric, and let out an oof as Rina tackled me with a hug from behind. She laughed as I tipped over my shoulder and tickled her belly, causing her to shriek with laughter, golden hair flying everywhere. Fenway and Mario came loping over seconds later, and then the kids were lying on their stomachs, chattering, and drawing in their sketch books.
“I want to make something for Uncle Danny,” Mario declared. “Do you think he’d like this?” He showed me a clumsy, lovely kiddish, and yet clear sketch of—me sitting in the yard, face tipped up to the sun, and I caught my breath. How could this kid be so insanely talented already? I mean, besides his mother and father, of course.
“I think so,” I said.
“Good, I’ll show Mommy, too, to make sure,” Mario said and took off, sketchbook flapping under his arm. I watched him go, my heart singing at how much he moved like Lia, for all that he looked like Ty.
What will our child look like? Dark hair and green eyes? Or reversed? Or more like me, but act like Danny—”
“I want to make something for Uncle Danny, too,” Rina said.
“I’m sure he’d like that,” I said.
“I miss him.”
“I miss him, too, Ri,” I said and smoothed my hand over her hair. She snuggled closer and then dropped her book, getting up and throwing herself around me. I embraced her little limbs and then looked her in the face, noting her pout. “What’s wrong?”
“You’re sad,” she said. “And Uncle Danny isn’t here. So, I called him.”
My entire body froze up as I stared at her. Her guileless dark eyes. “You—you what?”
“I heard Mommy and Daddy talking, and Daddy wanted to call, but they didn’t want to make you mad,” Rina said with terrifying and precise insight, as though channeling her grandmother and father at the same time. “And something about the baby.”
She shrugged as I stared at her and slowly got to my knees, my head spinning.
“What—when did you call, Ri?” I asked, trying to keep my voice calm.
Then I sucked in a deep breath and put a hand to my head. I was pretty tired and out of it. Maybe I’d misunderstood. Maybe she hadn’t called. Maybe I hadn’t been sold out by a six-year-old.
“Um, I don’t ‘memba,” Rina said, focused on her sketchbook again.
“Honey,” I said in a whisper and put a hand on her back. “What did you say?”
“I said—” She looked up at me and then glanced back, and her entire face lit up. “Uncle Danny.” She rocketed to her feet as I almost fell over, still on my knees, and a hand gripping my shirt over my stomach.
I watched as a dark-haired six-year-old careened into her golden-haired uncle, his face creased with exhaustion, his clothes wrinkled, and a beard covering his face. His entire look haggard enough to make Rina wrinkle her nose and yet still hug him around the neck, giving him a smacking kiss on the cheek. She babbled at him as I watched and my heart seemed to give out in my chest, a sob fighting to get free.
You’d make such a good Dad, I’d told him once, in this very yard, when Marina had been a baby and colicky, and Danny had infinite patience for his little niece. We’d briefly moved down here for a month, helping out with Mario while Lia recovered. Danny had ducked his head and flushed, giving me such a soft look of gratitude, as though unable to say a word.
Now, he murmured something to Marina and set her down, and she went skipping into the house. For a moment, he stood there, hands in his pockets, his face as cool and unreadable as the first time I’d laid eyes on him. I scrambled up, my face turning red, and guilt snarling in my chest. How could I have not told him? God, I was a monster, and not acting like an adult—not being a good partner to this man who’d done everything short of selling his soul to try and make things right. From Kir to therapy to the business—Danny had tried to keep me happy.
And in trying to be the man that I’d seen in him, he’d become so much more.
Someone who came even when I tried to push him away, when I got scared and ran.
Now, I took a step forward, a hand lifting, and Danny’s eyes seemed to burn, then he was charging across the yard and pulling me against him, gentle but unbreakable. Tears rolled free and I pressed my face against his shoulder, shaking and trying to apologize.
“I guess there’s a first for everything,” he murmured into my ear, and I leaned back. He caught my chin with one hand and gave me a stern look that made my knees go week, while his other hand pressed into my back, not letting me go.
“What?” I whispered.
“You’ve never been more wrong, wife,” Danny said, and he gazed at me, and I realized that he wasn’t exhausted from work—he was exhausted from rushing across the world to get to Malibu thanks to his six-year-old niece’s meddling—he’d killed himself to get here, to me.
Tears blurred my sight and Danny kissed me, savage and possessive, but also sweet and loving. I didn’t know how he did it. But I knew that he knew—and that he was right, I’d never been more wrong.
“But—but,” I blubbered as we broke apart and Danny wrapped his arms around me again, rocking me. “But you…”
“I wanted to get all this shit with work settled, and then surprise you… Or ask you.” I leaned back to look at him, which was a bit difficult because Danny didn’t seem inclined to let me go. “Aw fuck it—wanna move to Malibu?”
I clutched at him. “What?”
“Sara, we can’t keep busting our asses for this company. I think we need a break, to rethink things. Things are good. We can step back, let our competent staff handle stuff.” He cradled my face. “I didn’t know how to ask you to slow down, though. I didn’t want you to think I thought you couldn’t hack it. So, I thought maybe a house here might help sell it.” He swallowed hard. “I didn’t think you’d…”
“Didn’t—huh?”
“Oh, Sara,” Danny breathed. “Baby, I’d marry you today if I could. I had this whole idea of getting the house built, then proposing we have the wedding there…” He stepped back and looked me over. “I don’t care about any of that. All I want to do is be here—for you, for… the future.”
I closed my eyes and laughter bubbled up, amidst the tears. “Did Marina tell you?”
“No, I didn’t know what she meant, but I owe her forever. If I didn’t know any better, I’d swear she knew that.” He laughed and my entire heart lit up at the sound. “I thought she meant Lia until I saw you,” Danny said hoarsely and suddenly I heard a noise and looked down in time to see Danny had gone to his knees before he wrapped his arms around my waist and pressed his face into my stomach. “I just saw you and knew.”
“Of course,” I said and tugged on his hair.
“It knocked the wind out of me—I couldn’t even breathe for a second. I don’t think I heard a word of what Rina said.” He paused and trepidation went through me. “And I also don’t think I’ve been this happy since you said yes,” Danny said. “Or this scared.” He looked at me. “I’m sorry you thought you couldn’t tell me.”
I gave a hiccupping laugh and leaned down, kissing him, “I’m kind of a hormonal mess. Please don’t take it personally.” I tugged on his hair again. “You’re here.”
“I’m here,” he said, and his eyes glinted as he stood up. “And I’m not going anywhere, Sara Tailor. You agreed to make an honest man out of me and there’s no way in hell you’re reneging on that.”
Even though I knew he was kidding, even though I knew that he wanted this, that he loved me, I clutched at him and whispered, “You still want to get married?”
He swept me against him and tipped me back, “Why, Sara Tailor,” he murmured and kissed me. “I thought you’d never ask.”
Then he straightened me and gave me a serious look. “I can’t think of a better time to marry you than while you’re carrying our child—our future. We’re calling out for the rest of the damn month to make this happen, as quickly as possible.”
I went up on tiptoes and kissed him. “I think, between me and you, we can make that happen.” I smiled at him, my love, my future husband, the father of our precious child. “Anything is possible with us, through thick and thin, mess—and more mess.”
“And we’re great with a mess,” Danny agreed with a laugh, and he kissed me again.
The warm Malibu breeze ruffled around us, carrying the children’s laughter, and our silent promise to each other to always find a way back to each other—no matter what life threw our way.
After all, we’d done it so many times before, finding that happy ending.
For once, nothing on my computer could distract me.
Not when right now, my best friend in the entire world, Lia Goldin, was breaking into a cop’s house across the city, fueled by the desperate that her crime could pay for her father’s debt to the Sons of Celt. The Sons were a criminal enterprise that were surprisingly wide-ranging in their pursuits—dabbling in everything from petty theft to white collar crime to enacting medieval-ass blood debts on innocent girls. How Lou Goldin had gotten into bed with them was beyond me, but the man excelled at outdoing his own stupidity. Somehow, he’d managed to convince them to give him an enormous amount of money, and then bailed. The Sons didn’t appreciate that.
Either way, now Lia had to pay—either in cash with interest, or with her life.
I swallowed hard as I pictured her, golden hair tied back, the hood of her heavy sweatshirt up, and the hazel of her eyes stern with focus. Her lithe form, too thin from not eating enough, stealing across a dimly lit street, darting around a small white house, and sneaking into a backyard.
Following her best friend’s instructions to cut the power and break in.
All while, me, her best friend, waited for her call to help her with phase two—breaking into the cop’s laptop in hopes of finding some incriminating evidence that would pay her enough to get her out of trouble with the Sons, who’d demanded a motherless art student pay back Lou Goldin’s stupidly large debt to them.
A mix of adrenaline and tedium kept me pinned to my seat, raging against the circumstances, my heart roaring at how unfair it all was. It shouldn’t be this way, the person I loved best being forced to walk the edge of a shadowed world because of circumstance and suicide.
I knew how unfair the world was. I knew that no matter how smart you were, no matter how well you prepared, the world would break you into pieces the first chance it got.
No, all I could do was sit and stare out my window, watching night fall too fast now that it was almost winter. The cold glitter of Boston filled the skyline, bright, sharp, and distant. My computer monitor, reflected in the thick glass, glowed blank and slightly blue. I could just make out my features, the slight pinch between my eyebrows, the tight press of my lips and the nervous drum of my fingers on the arm of my chair.
My other arm was clamped around knees as I burrowed back further into the chair, layered in sweatshirts and a winter hat, not so much out of cold, but to try and keep the worry from gnawing straight through my skin to my terrified, frantic, and furious heart.
Lia is out there. Alone.
Always alone.
It shouldn’t be this way.
For as long as I could remember, her father had barely been in the picture, which made Lou’s current dumbassery even more infuriating. Usually, when I thought of Lia, it was always her and her mother against the world. Until, last year, when out of nowhere, Marina “Fierce” Fioreno, badass Boston Lady Detective extraordinaire had committed suicide, and Lia’s entire world fell apart. School, money, and now this shit.
God, I hate Lou Goldin.
My fingers seized on the chair, and I was tempted to get on my keyboard, track him down, and somehow get him extradited back to the States. But he’d probably end up in jail, and with Lia’s luck, she’d still be on the hook of those awful, idiotic Boston thugs and their goofy-ass criminal name.
Why can’t she catch a break?
At that moment, my phone rang, and I fumbled for it, nearly falling out of my chair. Heart pounding, I saw the number I told Lia to call me from flashing. My hand was shaking so badly, I almost couldn’t answer, and relief made me almost woozy.
“Holy shit,” I blurted into her ear, too much air wheezing out of my lungs, as though someone were squeezing my ribs.
And Lia, lovely, irrepressible, fearless Lia—laughed her ass off at me.
Shaking my head, a rush of affection and annoyance going through me, I drawled, “Okay, yeah, sure, it’s hilarious. That’s what I get for being normal and worried.”
“Believe me, Sara,” she said, her voice warm and familiar in my ear, though with that haunting echo of strain and sadness always ringing through it, “I almost peed myself a few times.”
“But you’re in?”
“I’m in.”
The next few minutes were a blur as I walked her through next steps, the phone tucked against my shoulder as my fingers flew over the keyboard. Forward momentum kept me calm and focused, and I scoffed when I saw the cop’s cluttered desktop.
“Boomers,” I tried to joke. “Look at that mess.”
“Oh my God, you’re the best,” Lia breathed in my ear, and I suddenly wanted to tell her to stop, to just come home. To just let me pay for her life with my ridiculous tech salary. It would be even more once I graduated from school. But I could do that now, I didn’t have to keep thousands in the bank—I’d stopped looking over my shoulder.
Hell, we could have even more money if I gave up this swanky, super-protected Beacon Hill apartment. I could scale down to a regular luxury apartment instead of this uber-secure one.
“Thank you so much,” Lia was saying. “You got me in.”
“No problem,” I got out. Silence pressed at both ends and even though it was the last thing I wanted to do, I made myself ask, “Should I hang up?”
“Yeah,” Lia said softly. “I have it from here. Thank you.”
“Stop saying that,” I said, more sharply than I meant. “Anytime… Oh and, just in case, good luck.” My throat was tight, and my eyes burned as I looked up at the ceiling. “See you soon, right?”
“Of course,” Lia said softly, as though reassuring me. “See you soon.”
I went to speak but the phone slipped, and the call disconnected. The phone’s screen went black in my hand as I stared at it, picturing Lia hunched at the desk, biting her chapped lips, and staring at the cop’s desktop. Going through those folders, one by one.
What if he comes back early? What if—?
“No,” I said out loud, ignoring how my voice shook. “Lia’s got this. She’ll text me in no time at all, safe and sound at home.”
***
I jerked awake out of an old nightmare, one that I hadn’t experienced in over a year, and pressed a hand to my racing heart. You’re okay, you’re safe, I told myself, as I struggled to sit up and make sense of why I was on top of the covers.
Rubbing at my face, I blinked at the windows, and a hot whine of panic began in the back of my head. Something was wrong. Soft pink and gold light streamed through them, lighting up the room. As though daybreak had arrived—but that wasn’t possible because Lia hadn’t called.
I sat up straighter, shaking my head and patting my cheeks, trying to figure out when I’d gone to bed. My memories from the previous night were fragments of waiting and falling asleep, of aimlessly clicking around on my computer, and then sitting on my bed—just for a second…
I fell asleep. Now the panic in my head filled my entire body, a sense of being crushed on all sides, and I forced myself upright. My body seemed disconnected from my brain, movements jerky and automatic as I went to my desk, fumbling around through papers and notebooks for my phone. It wasn’t there.
Whirling around, I spotted it on the floor, and pounced. The battery was almost dead.
No text or calls.
“Lia, no—no,” I murmured. “Where are you—where are you?”
Tears blurred my vision. I had to be dreaming. The soft light filling my window could not be daybreak. It could not be the next day, with no word from my best friend. Any moment now, I would wake up and she would be okay, and my phone would fully be charged and full of messages.
Only the light got brighter, and the phone battery got weaker.
My entire arm trembled as I dialed Lia’s number.
“We’re sorry,” said the cold, automated feminine-coded voice. “Your call cannot be completed as dialed. Please hang up and try again.”
“No,” I said and went to throw my phone, before grabbing my charger and plugging it in. First, I attempted to track down Lia with the apps on my phone, before rushing to my computer, and whirling through every way I knew to track her.
But it was as though her phone had been wiped off the face of the earth.
Like Lia had been wiped off the face of the earth.
Here and then suddenly gone, just like her mother.
A sob shuddered between my gritted teeth. Okay, I had to try a different approach. I knew the name of the cop she’d gone after—Mickey Weiss, and yesterday I’d managed to sneak a peek at what Lia had been tasked to investigate.
The Michaelson family, notorious gangsters that lurked in the shadows of the Northeast.
That name had made my entire body go cold, and as I began to search them, the hits made it go colder. Everything I found told me a grim, bloody story of the previous generation—the brutal and horrific exploits of the “Rhino” and the “Reaper.” But both those men were gone now, and the family was under the control of the Rhino’s son, Tyler, and his cousins. By all accounts, Tyler and his capos were just as bad, if not worse—especially since they knew how to cover their tracks.
A pit formed in my stomach as I remembered the heavy muscle outside that Sons of Celt nightclub, the gangsters in suits with tattoos, guns, and cold purpose in their eyes. They’d pulled up right after Lia had gone in, and I remembered that twist in my gut, the timing too close a call…
They have her, said the pragmatic, blunt voice in the back my head. The Michaelson family has Lia. I put my hands over my face. And I’ll never see her again.
“No,” I growled and shoved away from my desk.
I took a quick, freezing shower, then got dressed, and made myself an espresso. When, I at again at my computer, I was more awake, more determined, and caffeinated. I then sent a quick message to my work, then my professors, apologizing for being out today and possibly tomorrow.
I would not leave this desk—I would not rest until I found my friend Lia.
Chapter Two
Sara
Hours passed, a blur of black windows with white text, blinking cursors, and dead ends, until I closed my eyes and saw meaningless words imprinted on the back of my lids. Occasionally, I’d stopped to drink coffee, snack, and jot down notes. But as the afternoon began to wane, I couldn’t eat or drink or make myself to get up.
Not when I was descending into a familiar, deadly kind of panic—a kind of fear that I’d only felt a few times before and had vowed to never feel again.
Ice-cold terror snarled up my arms as I hit another dead end and a scream of frustration built in my head. What the fuck was this? Why couldn’t I find one single answer? One lead?
Did the Michaelson family employ some kind of tech god? A hacker savant? An MIT student?
My jaw set to the side. I had gotten into Harvard and not MIT, and while I loved my Ivy League school—it had been my first choice—the MIT rejection still burned. But maybe I could use that, pretend the Michaelsons did employ some MIT incel bastard who hated women and was a decent coder but would be crushed under my stiletto.
I snorted. Like Zakary Frole at work. God, that fucking twat. At least calling out of work meant I didn’t have to see him and deal with his inability to take no for an answer.
And as though waiting for my petty grievance to pave the way, my computer chirped at me. Finally, I’d found something. Not what I was looking for, but a start—the Michaelson family’s virtual private storage, buried and locked under layers of protection. At least I had something, maybe a place to look for answers, instead of hunting for a place to even look.
You can do this, Sara Tailor. You are a badass tech whiz. Better than any gangster in Boston.
Getting into this storage, however, was presenting a real challenge. Chewing on my lip, my eyes flicked to my second monitor, where the project was that I was working on for my part-time tech job, a security-focused company called Moxi. They let me hack and chew all around their systems and client systems to find security flaws, and last month they had given us all access to a new, cutting-edge tool called Iris-X, or Iris-Beta, as it was still very much in beta.
We were not, under any circumstances, supposed to use it for anything outside of work until the product was done being developed.
But of course, I looked at Iris-X inside and out, copied it, made improvements, and had not yet deployed it. I called it my Iris-XS, my super sneaker, and excellent additions or not, it was a huge risk. I had no idea if Iris-XS could be detected—or if it even worked.
The alternative, though—brute-forcing my way in or even finding the physical server farm to try and get in that way—could take days. Weeks.
Heart pounding into my fingertips, I opened the Iris-XS application before I could stop myself and wielded it against the layers of security and firewalls around the Michaelson systems, cutting through them like a hot knife through butter. It was almost intoxicatingly easy, and a name flashed by during my furious search.
Hyperion.
That gave me pause in the tangled world of the Michaelson’s internal web that opened up to me. My lips parted as it hit me. No wonder it been so hard to hack into this—this wasn’t a typical virtual machine or series of servers. It was not like anything I’d ever seen. This was a whole world, with twists and turns, crafted by a genius who’d named it Hyperion.
“Holy shit,” I said and sat back, flicking my eyes through what I could see, trying to understand what I was looking at. It would take time to learn this, to fully appreciate this—
No. I need to find Lia.
But my hesitation cost me. Suddenly, I was kicked out of where I’d been within Hyperion, and almost locked out entirely. If my super sneaky Iris-XS tool hadn’t given me the ability to create backdoors and fake accounts, I would have been. But like a little parasite, I couldn’t be so easily removed, and I fled off to a different corner, trying to find a list of likely places they could have taken her.
What if they had hurt Lia? I swallowed as the computer screen seemed to fuzz in front of my eyes. What if they’re hurting her right now?
Hastily, I began to compile a list, addresses that I scribbled down, even as I sensed that whatever—or whoever had kicked me out before was closing in.
Sure enough, right before I was about write down the address for a place out in West Carlisle, I was locked out. A snarl tore out of me, and I slammed my hand down in frustration, then sucked in a sharp breath.
Final warning, ran the message on my screen. Your code might be lovely and your talent prodigious, Iris—but next time I won’t be so nice.
I gaped at the message, wondering how they’d done it—and even more mind-blowing, it acted like an old-school chatroom. I could type back.
Fingers shaking, I wrote out, Go to hell, Mr. Hype. Or should I say, Mr. Michaelson?
Oh, ballsy, came the response. Even though it’s pretty damn cold out today in Boston—you’re playing with fire.
“What?” I whispered.
Suddenly, another window opened, this time with a map. For a split second, it was stagnant, then it zoomed in to the Northeast, tilted over to New York, to the Midwest, and then jumped back Massachusetts.
“Shit. Shit. Shit,” I hissed as my tired, clumsy fingers attempted to stop Mr. Hyperion, to cut him off before he could find me. How was he doing this?
Yeah, I see you.
Now the map showed Boston and its environs. It hopped to Cambridge, to Harvard, and I swore, as it jumped across the river, to Boston University and Commonwealth Ave, and then moved East.
With no other choice, I killed my entire system, and my screen went black.
But not before I saw his final message.
Better run, because I’m gonna find your ass.
***
Daniel
“Dramatic,” I murmured to myself as the trail vanished, the hacker—who’d I’d dubbed Iris, after managing to glean that the program they were using to hack into Hyperion was called Iris-XS—clearly killing their entire system to prevent me from finding them. “But effective.”
Too bad it was too late—I’d narrowed their location down to a fifteen-mile radius within Boston proper. All I’d needed was a fifty-mile radius and I could hunt them down with days. As it was, by tomorrow, I should have a name, an address, blood type, star sign, favorite kind of porn, and all the other interesting vices hidden in plain sight on the internet.
Leaning back in my chair, I thought I’d sensed them panic when the map had jumped to Cambridge, to Harvard Square. I didn’t think they were there, but they must spend time there. Maybe they were even a Harvard alumnus—though how they’d wound up on Hendrix’s payroll was beyond me. Perhaps prodigious Ivy League debt made the prospect of working for a gangster palatable. Blood money could be lucrative.
Pulling up their tracks, I sighed, and began to clean up their trail, trying to lock down the intranet I’d created for the Michaelson crime family. It was meant to be a web to catch any hacker, but this haphazard, clever spy had dodged every trap. Brute force and deft elegance let them get deeper than anyone should’ve been able to. Young but brilliant, was my guess. Perhaps not a graduate—but a student. Someone who took chances, someone who was willing to piss me off.
I blew out a sigh. Not good. Iris clearly had no idea how far in over their head they were. Or worse—did he have some kid on his payroll? It shouldn’t surprise me—there was no depth to which Hendrix would not sink. His family had become weaker since Ty had taken the lead of our family, and the word on the street was that his father would only give him the official role of boss once he managed to defeat Ty.
I drummed my fingers lightly on my keyboard, debating what to do. I wished I’d known how the little spy had gotten into Hyperion in the first place. Gotten in and then managed to stay in, which should not have been possible.
Staring at my computer, my mind whirled through dozens of possible plans, sifting and sorting. The smartest, most prudent thing would be to take down the whole system, and then bring it back, piece by piece, combing it over to make sure it was locked down and safe.
But then I couldn’t be sure that I’d ever find that hacker. At least, not without my full attention, and we had too much shit going on with Hendrix, the informant cop in the hospital, and the beautiful blonde who had my cousin, the Capo, in knots.
No, I had to play the riskier hand and leave Hyperion vulnerable, open a few doors to try and trick Iris into sneaking back in. Then I could trap them somewhere and study their skills at my leisure, while also finding a physical location.
I can’t believe they’re local. How reckless can you be? I shook my head. Part of me, however, was also curious about their skills—I’d never seen shit like that. It was as infuriating as it was impressive.
No matter what the cost, I had to protect my family stuff.
I had to find that little spy.
***
An incessant chiming came from next to my ear and I groaned, wincing as I tried to lift my aching neck, the inside of my mouth tasting like an ash tray, and my glasses crooked on my face. I blinked in confusion at the screens in front of me, then jolted awake in pure panic.
“Cazzo,” I swore in Italian, as my fingers tried to find the keys, stiff and useless from disuse. I’d been looking for the little spy, Iris, for almost twenty-four hours straight, with no luck. I’d kept meaning to take a break and had fallen asleep at my desk instead.
In the meantime, Iris had pounced. My brain seemed to hum as I woke up more, trying to catch them, screens popping up and closing, their quick, darting work making my jaw clench even as admiration unfurled in my chest.
Damn, Iris had balls.
I wish I could get you on our payroll, I thought, then I barked out, “FUCK,” as they almost found Tyler’s address—again. Heart pounding, I didn’t want to admit that I’d only narrowly stopped them. What the hell were they looking for—addresses to rob, to leak to the Feds, or a hit? Was Hendrix going after the Head of the Michaelson family? Didn’t we have enough to deal with?
I rubbed at my face, glancing at my phone, wondering how things were going with the blonde, and then I reached for a cigarette. Then, I paused when a message box appeared.
That was fun, but I think you’re all talk, Mr. Hype.
“No way,” I breathed. Iris had deconstructed my messaging apparatus, copied it, and was now using it to talk to me? “That’s so fucked—but also fucking incredible.”
Maybe I can teach you a thing or two.
A laugh huffed out of me. Maybe. You seem to have a death wish. What are you after?
Information. I raised an eyebrow as they seemed to pause, weighing their options. I don’t suppose mobsters might be bribed…
The word made my heart snarl, the tension in my spine enough to make it snap, and my head too heavy with the memories of the two biggest assholes in the universe, my uncle and my sperm donor. Their sneering faces, their chest-pounding pageantry at being mobsters, and their relentless cruelty.
Go fuck yourself, I typed and sent Iris hurtling through the Hyperion stratosphere.
I couldn’t wait any longer. I’d started to lay traps for Iris, but that wasn’t cutting it. The next hours were a blur of locking down the most vulnerable and important parts of Hyperion, taking breaks to nap, and plotting where Iris might live in Boston.
The next morning, I was out the door by nine, ready to hit every coffee shop and public wi-fi area around the Common. It wasn’t a perfect solution, but I had a feeling Iris was smart enough to keep moving, and staying private in public was their best bet at continuing to hack Hyperion and avoid me finding them.
Dressed like a college kid, I’d opted for a Northeastern University sweatshirt, a Boston Red Sox hat, and my most comfortable pair of jeans. I kept my hat pulled low and glasses on, trying to keep my expression neutral as I entered the Downtown Bean. But still, I saw the curious glances from people, the mix of admiration and nervousness, and my gut twisted.
Fuck off and stop staring.
I knew, deep down, I had not received the suave, stupid-handsome Italian genes that my cousins Ty and Luca had. Instead, I had a weird mix of striking features that made people do a double take, which I fucking hated to no end. Especially since, once they got a good look at me, saw the look in my eyes—they ran for the goddamn hills. Every time.
Sometimes, I might get a wild child of a woman to pursue me for the thrill of danger, but once she got close, once she sensed even a fraction of how broken and fucked in the head I was—she always vanished on me.
Now, I didn’t even bother beyond an occasional one-night stand, but even that had become less and less frequent. Once, I’d thought that maybe there could be at least one person who might be able to match me. Who might at least like me, who might be into the same things I was, and wouldn’t mind sharpening passion and intellect with me.
Probability-wise, on a planet with eight billion people, it seemed arrogant to assume otherwise.
These days, even that probability seemed like a fucking fairy tale.
I glanced out the window, at the busy stream of people crossing from the Theater District into Chinatown, the artsy kids from Emerson College smoking on the corner and laughing, the parents hustling kids with bouncing backpacks, and tourists ambling along.
The best you can do for Ty and the rest of the family is keep your head down, hack, and keep building Hyperion. Don’t get it twisted. You’re the monster on the Michaelson leash.
My computer let out a strange chime and I jolted, nearly upsetting my coffee. A few people looked over as it went off again and I touched my ears. I was wearing headphones. What the fuck?
Miss me? Ran a message across the screen. And it’s cute how you’re using café wi-fi. Great minds—but I prefer a different coffee shop. Also, there are a lot of public wi-fi places in this city, Mr. Hype. You’re out of your depth—and hiding something in West Carlisle.
Shaking my head, I typed, maybe that’s what I want you to think. With a few keystrokes, I made it look like I was in a different café, then a public library, and finally, an Emerson college classroom in the nearby theater. Or maybe I want you to know where I am.
I didn’t want that at all. Pressing back against the wall, I flicked my eyes over the room, but I saw no danger. Still, maybe sitting by the window wasn’t the best decision. Shattered glass and gunshots flashed through my head, and I let out an unsteady breath. I’d been witness to a drive-by once before and I never wanted to see that shit again, much less die that way.
You are pretty damn good, they wrote back, and I thought the tone was one of begrudging respect, which was kind of amusing. MIT?
Hm, well damn. I had indeed taken an accelerated program at MIT, at Ty’s insistence. Yep. Harvard?
They took a moment to respond. Maybe. And I didn’t know mobsters were so touchy about name-calling. I’ll be more sensitive to that, Mr. Hype.
A jolt went through me, a roll of surprise and excitement that had my fingers hovering over the keyboard as I almost typed out what I’d just realized.
You’re a woman, I thought, and a grin spread over my face.
I wanted to keep things interesting, Ms. Iris.
All that came back was a winky face before my computer rebooted and I yelped out, “Fuck.” The entire café went silent as heads swiveled to me and I gave a sheepish salute. “Computer died. Big paper due.”
Shoving upright, I grabbed the computer, and hustled to another café. There, it took me twenty minutes to get the computer working again. When I did, Iris was nowhere to be found, nor could I assess if she’d found anything.
And then my cousin Luca called me to set up a meeting with Boston Bratva.
Chapter Three
Daniel
After the unexpected outing with a bunch of fucking Russians, the bad news that a local Russian mob boss, Ivan Volskov had been offed, most likely by Hendrix, and having to keep Ivan’s nephew Kir and Ty from beating the hell out of each other, I hadn’t had a chance to check on Hyperion or Iris for almost a full day. For safety, I’d taken parts of Hyperion offline before the meeting with the Russians, and was now booting them back up, wondering if Ms. Iris was watching.
Ooh, did I spook you, Mr. Hype? Came the message.
Don’t flatter yourself, I wrote back, even though she had indeed spooked the fuck out of me. Maintenance.
Sure. Mid-week is a perfect time for that. By the way, those traps you laid for me were real cute. Again, offer stands to teach you a few things.
My lips twisted as I fought the urge to laugh. You’re just delaying the inevitable, brat.
I don’t think so, she wrote back. I think you like playing cat and mouse, Mr. Hype. Especially since I’ve piqued your interest by being in possession of a vagina.
At that, I did laugh outright, and Heavy, who was sitting across the room in the Crow’s Nest, the nickname of our building down the Seaport, slowly lifted his head and raised an eyebrow at me. I winked at him.
Of course, she continued. You thought I was a dude—so disappointing.
Is that why you nuked my computer? I wrote back. And I didn’t assume jack shit. If anything, though, I should’ve assumed you were a woman.
Oh, bullshit, she wrote back. But fine, humor me, why?
You’re persistent and adaptable. You think outside the box. You code with as much elegance as you do brute force.
For a moment, there was no response.
And compliments seem to be your weakness, I couldn’t help adding.
Meet me.
I stirred at that, something in my gut twisting, even as my heart beat a little faster.
Come on. I’ll make it easier. Meet me and let’s talk this out. I have money and—
I’ll stop you right there, I wrote, resentment filling me. I’m not “meeting” you, Iris. Fuck, how naïve do you think I am? I have no interest in having a bullet put in my head in a downtown café.
Perhaps I’d been a bit naïve, too, hunting Iris down with such recklessness. I’d thought her young, but maybe that had been an act. Asking me to meet, that shit was bold. A bit of an ingénue feint, too, trying to get me to let down my guard. Seemed Hendrix had sent an absolute pit bull after us.
Or—fuck. Was this a Fed? Waving money around like that? How fucking nauseating. I’d have to jump off the Tobin if I’d been bantering with a goddamn Fed.
Oh my God, that’s so dark, Iris replied. Christ, only a gangster would think that she wrote back. So, what, we go around in circles until you find me? I have a life, hello? Guess it must be nice not having a day job, being all above it as criminals, too good for the rules like the rest of us.
“Oh, Iris,” I said out loud, dazzled and delighted at her biting temper coming through the computer screen. “You just fucked up. You showed your entire ass, girl.”
I have several jobs, smartass, I wrote back. And yes, I like the chase. I also don’t believe for one second that you’d make it easier for me.
Except, I did. But it was too late to try and go that route. Plus, I couldn’t say for certain, but I suddenly suspected that Iris was a civilian, not Mafia. Day job, huh. Delicious. Especially since I was now pretty certain she wasn’t a Fed.
You won’t find me, Iris wrote. If you haven’t found me yet, you won’t, aren’t you smart enough to see that?
She was right. It had been almost four days, and I hadn’t found her. But what she probably had not anticipated was the danger of revealing anything to someone like me.
I, however, am getting lots of juicy information about Hyperion, she wrote, and I fought a grin. “Yeah, Iris, what I’m letting you find,” I said.
And I am persistent, Mr. Hype. Iris’s words were coming fast and furious now. I knew she had to be glaring at her computer somewhere. I will take all your shit down to get what I want. This is my last offer for a mutually beneficial compromise.
I appreciate that, Iris, I wrote back. But I’m not interested in compromise.
“I’m also not the one using company technology on personal time, young lady,” I said out loud.
“You good over there, cuz?” Heavy called. “’Cause you’re kinda freaking me out talkin’ to yourself and grinnin’ and shit. Look possessed.”
I grinned even wider, my demon’s grin, and I heard Heavy curse to himself. I’d ran a cross-search, and within five minutes, had pulled up the website for a company called Moxi. Located in downtown Boston, right in the Financial District, they were a world-wide expert on security technology, famous for employing hackers to test for weaknesses. And there’d been chatter about their propriety, cutting-edge security technology in beta, not even known to the market yet. A technology called Iris-Beta-22.
“Bingo,” I murmured. Louder, I said, “I’m fucking grand, Heavy.” He came over, a nervous hilarity on his face as he hovered, and I grinned wider. “Wanna take a field trip over to the Financial District with me? I’ll get you dinner.”
“Sure,” Heavy said. “Christ, you’re a scary bastard.”
“Thanks,” I said with a chuckle. Then I read the message from Iris, you’re going to regret this.
Nah, I wrote back. But I will see you real soon. And with that, I shut down most of Hyperion, save for one corner where I had Iris trapped. It would take her hours, if not days, to get out of there.
And in the meantime, I now knew where she worked. By the end of the week, Friday at the latest, I’d finally know who she was.
Looks like you’re gonna get that face-to-face after all, Iris, I thought as I stood up and grabbed my jacket. But I think I’m gonna enjoy it a hell of a lot more than you are.
The car pulls up in front of the manor and there they are. Alejandra, in denim shorts, and a mustard yellow knitted top, holding our daughter, Aurora who is dressed to match, and our son, Alessio. We both got what we wished for. The little man is already a rogue, and I’m sure he took after his mother, not me.
I take long strides toward them and Aurora is already bouncing in her mother’s arms, screaming Dada, whereas Alessio is more interested in picking apart his toy on the floor.
“Dada,” she giggles, stretching as I take her from her mother and plant a kiss on her lips, cheeks, and forehead, a little into her jet-black hair. Then I kiss her mother on the lips.
I won’t hear the last of it. I kissed Aurora before her. I squat to Alessio’s level and he notices me, then flashes me a smile, stretching his toy to me to fix.
Is that all I’m good for, little man? I ruffle his brown hair and lift him to plant a kiss on his cheek. Forget about his sapphire eyes, he takes after his mother, for my sake, I hope.
“Set?” I kiss Alejandra on her temple.
“Why are you asking me, ask your new wife Aurora,” she pouts and starts walking to the hangar.
I knew it. This war didn’t start now. Aurora is mostly everywhere around me. Under my desk in the office, sneaking to sleep between her mother and me, and I have started to eat better because of her. She is a terrible eater so I had to eat with her to make her eat. How can I not? Have you seen my daughter with eyes like her mother’s and hair like my mother’s? A combination of the two people I love the most.
I trail after Alejandra to the private jet waiting for us. We get in and settle into the seats, with Alejandra pressing her lips together to hold back her smile. She is full of it. We are going to Spain to see her family and spend some time with them. It’s about time I take her mother up on the meal promise.
The last time she visited, I only at a small portion of every meal she made. This time, I’ll do better, not so much, but way better than I have ever done when it comes to eating.
For most of our flight, Alejandra talks about a romantic comedy movie she saw last night. Alessio and Aurora are keeping busy eating, sleeping, crying, fighting with each other, and making sure I and their mother don’t go anywhere without them.
We arrive at the airport to her family holding out placards and flashing welcoming bright smiles. Her father’s minivan drives us to their homely country house surrounded by tomatoes farms, and a few houses of the same kind of brick and washed peach color paint scattered about in the distance.
The neighborhood is both quiet and loud. Not much noise is heard but kids and families are outside, waving at us and her father makes sure to stop occasionally and introduce us to some of the people around.
When we get in, Alejandra goes to curl beside her father and her little brother, Luis keeps tailing her mother as she gets busy trying to set the table for us. Although Alejandra did not know at the time, her mother had been in the first weeks of an unexpected pregnancy at the time of her abduction. Luis was born months after Alejandra’s disapperance and was probably the main reasons her parents were able to hold it together despite to the pain and horror of their daughter’s vanishing and the driving force to go on.
Inside is a reflection of their warmness. The smell of spices that I recognize from when her mother visited, and the local raspberry scent. It’s like everyone is uses the same body spray, and it’s lovely. It’s calming and welcoming.
Family pictures line the walls, including some of Alejandra as a teenager. My favorite is the one where she is standing beside a cardboard mansion built by her. Some pictures of her little brother, Abuela, and grandfather she wasn’t born to see line the walls too. Then a recent family photo of them at our wedding is sitting on a box television.
“Welcome,” her mother is at it again for the millionth time since we arrived at the airport, only this time she is pointing at the table.
Loud Spanish calls are thrown around about the twins and who they look like more bouncing from Abuela, to her father, to her aunt, to some extended family members. I am trying to keep up as we feast. It sure takes a village, because this is a village we are eating with now.
Bliss. One word to describe this new world I’ve been gifted.
***
“That is so not true!” Alejandra shrieks, laughing, as we walk around the Alhambra Palace in Granada.
After dinner, where I ate much too much, her family offered to look after the twins so we could explore the city. Her mother added that they wouldn’t be waiting up for us and she’d make breakfast ready for us by morning.
The palace lives up to the descriptions Alejandra won’t stop bugging me with each time she has an assignment to sketch something. She is always on the lookout for designs that hold universal beauty and are exceptional expressions of creative depth and rich culture. She thinks buildings should tell stories and this one tells a story, alright.
I just narrated the story I think this one is telling us, about the time the lord asked his lady to hold on to the pillar while he fucked her from behind.
“Why else would anyone have this many pillars?” I raise an eyebrow, a new expression that I use often to communicate with the kids to show my disapproval of something.
“Pillars are to hold the structure,” she giggles, scurrying forward and spreading her arms wide open as if to fly.
“They will do just fine holding the structure in the meantime,” I look at them. I mean I know they are to hold the structure but fuck me if they don’t make me want to test that theory.
“You are one hell of a man, Massimo Gaeta,” she scampers back to me, and wraps her arms around my waist.
“You know that already,” I dip my head.
“I do,” she says meeting my lips with hers.
“We should try it though,” I kiss her softly.
“We should keep my muse untainted,” she kisses me softly.
“And I was thinking I’m your muse,” I deepen the kiss.
“Are you jealous of a building now Massimo Gaeta?” She gives me her tongue and I suck on it, relishing the chocolate taste on her tongue from the cake we had for dessert.
“How can I not be,” I say, thanking hell it’s not a person because I’d have a hard time competing with this one for her heart. “Don’t fuck with me,” I let her lead the way.
“Oh, I will,” she laughs.
“You’ll fuck me?”
“Admit I’m your muse.”
“You are being petty.”
I scowl at the majestic building with its unmatched regality.
She stops and looks me in the eye.
“You are a wish, you are a masterpiece, and I can only pray I’ll be able to create something as surreal as you, but every day that I look at you, I see how futile that prayer is,” she closes the distance and I inhale sharply.
Hear that Alhambra?
“I love you,” I cup her face with both palms and I press my lips against hers in a sealing kiss.
Breathtaking sunset-lit scenery, with a breathtaking olive-skinned woman?